Saturday, November 07, 2009 1:41 PM
After so many weeks of torture and suffering, it is left with the last 3+ weeks of school before my second last semester is coming officially to an end! Even though there were many a times I just feel like giving up totally, and there were a lot of times when it feels like time is moving on a snail pace, I must say on the whole time still flew me by. Thinking back all the things I have done, all the modules I am taking, all the presentations and projects I have completed, all the group mates I have met, all the new people I have gotten to know, all the experiences I have been through since start of semester, I must say I am a really lucky Year 4 soul. I survived so far without sacrificing in the process!!!
The worst should be more or less over unless suddenly every single thing that can screw up happen such! I definitely hope I am not so unlucky as to experience them just when I thought I have finally gotten my chance to see the light at the end of the tunnel. But there is a little part in me which still wishes that my grades can be not too bad despite the fact that I keep telling people I just want to make it past and grades arn't going to matter. The sad thing about living in this world is that many a times it is about the results and not the process (no matter what other people may want to fight against this, it is still a cold and harsh fact of life). If I can do relatively well this semester, then next semester will really be a time for me to thoroughly enjoy my last semester of university life and go ahead to do what I want to, for the last time. Because I heard the other institution I am going next year doesn't have a better life lined up for me.
馨玉儿~
Monday, November 02, 2009 3:39 PM
And to think I thought my weeks in this semester couldn't have been any worse. Here I am blogging instead of working on the 5000words essay due 2359hrs today whose word count is 0, or starting on the 2 assignments due 1900hrs later which I have not even started. Sitting alone in the Chinese Honours room all by myself with all the reference books to be read through and quoted. I just wish for some time machine to fast forward everything until after exams when I can really take a proper breather since coming back from exchange. Now is time to show mind over body! But how to when it's my mind telling me no? LOL. Oh well.
馨玉儿~
Tuesday, October 27, 2009 7:14 PM
Yesterday was a day which I hope I can always live once in a while of my life. It is all these little and random things in life which makes it interesting, memorable and fun. I went back to ANDSS to visit my students, chiong-ed down all the way from NUS just so to give them emotional support for their O-levels. I inititally thought it was their O-levels Chinese paper but it turned out to be their very 1st paper, O-levels English. I still did what I went down to accomplish and thoroughly enjoyed every single minute.
3 of the male students were even as thoughtful as to come fetch me when they saw me enter the school gates, so sweet! Then when I walked to the canteen, the students whom I taught before started crowding around me, one of them even wrote me a letter. Touched to the max! As they updated me about their results and fortunes/misfortunes with their mother tongue after I stopped teaching them, I was thinking to myself how time has flown!!! My oh my, how my Sec.1 students have all grown to be handsome & beautiful Sec.4 students! How I have aged! :p
Then it was meeting up with a secondary school junior after don't know how many years. Such meet-ups never fails to make my day anytime! I really treasure those people whom I can still talk and laugh along even though we may not meet up often and our life has not criss-crossed again since the last time. On one hand, I cannot stop making new friends, but on the other hand I do not want to lose the times and opportunities to meet up with old friends. That is why they say life is a struggle and you cant have the best of both worlds. Oh Well.
Ponned a lesson at the evening to go watch a dance performance at Esplanade with Kai Wei, Applie and Camy!!! It was super nice! The Korean B-boys so cute & hot! *drools* The tapping boys were awesome and their beatbox person absolutely rocks! OMG! I just screamed and screamed together with a lot of other people as we got so high after watching everything! Think I lost my voice, lol. It was wonderful to just let hair down, not care what other people think of you, and scream to your heart's content. Shiok ah!
This week is going to be super stressful as I can feel myself tensing up by the minute with all the deadlines and assignments and projects. I can so see other fellow Year 4s also feeling that same way as everyone is getting pretty short-fused and easily irritated or frustrated. Oh man, I just wish for this semester to end as soon as possible, yet with me having sufficient time to complete everything on time. Dilemma, bleah. WE CAN SURVIVE DE! YES LAH!
馨玉儿~
Sunday, October 25, 2009 9:07 PM
Sometimes, there are some people whom I would very much like to call friends but they give me the very strong feeling that they are just making use of me. This type of feeling to have gotten it from your so-called friends, sucks. I am not saying I mind helping friends out when they need me to, I am always more than willing to lend my friends a helping hand in fact! BUT, there are just some people out there who does certain things or react in certain ways, which just cant help but lead me to thinking: Are they just making use of me, then throwing me aside once they are done??? Am I like that? Please let me know as I hate such people and absolutely would not want myself to be such a person to any of my friends.
馨玉儿~
Friday, October 16, 2009 10:32 PM
It has been a long time since I last blogged as I basically have not been really thinking about things other than my presentations, essays, assignments and deadlines. But recently I have been considering the prospect of doing something crazy, which is yet very me at the same time.
Talking to some people and hearing about some things made me think about recognition. It is something that can be easily or painstakingly earned, unlike respect which requires real skill or hardwork. Normally recognition comes with respect, but there are also many a times when it doesnt. You can be respected as a person, but your efforts or contributions are not recognised. I guess it also depends on the scenario, situation and circumstances surrounding everything.
I have seen people whose contributions are simply not recognised as others choose to judge them based on their subjective scales. I am not saying it is the fault of those who judged, they are just being human beings. I can only say that life is never fair, none of us ever a saint. Despite that, I have to keep reassuring myself it is alright as I just happen to not have the capabilities, characteristics or personalities which stand out enough to be recognised easily. This sucks as my already low self-confidence drops further. It makes me feel horrible. Some people may say, I should not allow myself to be subjected to being affected by other people's lack of respect and recognition for me. I find it impossible to do so. Maybe I am just weak. And the ironic thing is I hate being such a weakling.
I should stop thinking nonsense and just focus on my academic pursuit.
馨玉儿~
Wednesday, October 07, 2009 8:25 PM
I have officially camped in the library for 11hours straight, it will be 12hours when I have to leave at the closure. This is the 1st time ever in my whole university life that I stayed so long in the library. Thankfully I have power socket and nice window view to keep me company, if not it will be impossible for me to have stayed on so long.
I have been productive today, so much that I am really proud of myself. :p But at the same time I feel really shagged out, mentally and physically. And along with the fatigue comes headache, bleah. I am just going to hang in there and do what I can until I have to make my way back. We can do it if we believe!!! Yes Lah! :)
馨玉儿~
Thursday, October 01, 2009 8:28 AM
Due to heavy workload the day before, I was not able to catch the wedding dinner of my favourite Condor Heroes couple live on TV. But thankfully some kind soul uploaded it online thus I was able to watch it, better late than never!!!
Oh my.. the both of them are just so sweet together!!! The happiness they are giving out is so so so much that I cannot help myself but keep smiling throughout the whole show lah! Finally after so long, after so much, they are officially together as husband and wife. No more having to shun the media, no more having to restrain their PDA to each other.
Watching the wedding reminds me of another wedding, the first one I was ever personally invited. They are still happily wedded together now. And then there is this close friend of mine who maybe having her wedding once after graduation! Once again, the urge to get married arises from nowhere. But how can there be a wedding if there is just the bride but no groom right? LOL. Oh well, just wish I will have a chance to have a blissful wedding of my own. May those attached stay happily together until marriage, and those single find their true love! :)))
馨玉儿~
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