Sunday, May 29, 2005
假期已经开始了。。很快。。真的太快了。。看着六月的日历，已经有很多天有事情了，但是这个假期必须要把初院里所有学过的东西掌握好。看起来真是一项不可能的任务啊。。但是心里知道自己必须做到，否则放假后会死得更惨。。
年终的大考。。我能顺利完成吗？真的很怕很怕。。再多安抚的话，对我来说已没有用了。。。怎么办。。。胡思乱想，胡言乱语，不必理会。。。
11:10 AM
Saturday, May 28, 2005
we were reali feelin veri tempted to ah-bish him at tt time, heez~ =P
11:20 PM
me, xuefen n zhiqi~!!! =)
11:19 PM
73 power! a pity nvr manage to get all 73 huang cheng-ers tgt 4 a pic, but me believe there'll be chance de!
11:18 PM
shall write about e choir concert @ victoria concert hall today! haha, it was my 1st time watching a choir concert & 1st time gg in vch to watch performance; and its def a very memorable experience for me, all thanks to kokhong who manage to persuade me and give me some financial assisstance tt allow me to go and watch today!!! haha, thx lots and great job done~!!! i was totally mersmerised & amazed thru-out e concert!!! congrats to kokhong, tongtong, melissa(mel) & guanhan!!! myriad 05 was a success!!! haha. =)
morning and afternoon was at school busying myself with lep writing camp preparations, had fun wrapping up e gifts in many ways with e same type of stuff inside so tt they look veri different, haha. there're some that have different surprises inside, but most are e same, which is no choice due to our tight budget. loh. thx to those who've helped or come down 4 preparation works~ (alice, jinx, kiaying, hoifai, chenwen, liuzhen, e 2 michelle low, doreen, huanwei, xinhui, chailing & georgia!) thx lots liaoz~ =) so was drenched out and was reluctant to go watch concert as hav 2 go home bath den go out again.. but still, i went, which i am glad i did. =P
was supposed to go and buy flower b4 gg vch but i left school too late, reach home late, rush thru eth, rush until din alight @ city hall, go raffles place find no flower shop den hav 2 go 4 e concert empty-handed, feelin veri bad at heart. saw e A12 gals who are all so dressed up nicely i almost couldnt recognise them la! haha, esp e bdae gal mavis wo~ den met up with yiyun n her little sis in vch and we sat tgt. lucky for me, yiyun got her mum to buy flowers so also help me buy, tt explains for e lack of wrapping, it was rushed out & taken frm yiyun's mum durin e interval. so paiseh to those hu got e flowers..
watched e concert and was of cos noticing e ppl who are singing, most of e time lookin at ppl whom i noe loh. special mention to mel who was nervous and after e J1 1st song, she was so anxious to walk offstage tt she walked wrongly den go-stan, haha, aiyo gal, u blur blur loh. also to guan han, haha, ur face was stoning thru-out every song u sing, no facial expression one loh, haha. also saw this hwa chong alumni who looks veri similar to ningfei loh, haha, thot scarly was his bro or sth so asked him but turn out -ve, jus pure coincidence loh. also got e tchs guest performance! haha, e sec1 tchs choir members so cute!!! they're so small size e sleeve of e blazer almos cover their hand liaoz. den their expressions and actions and voice veri cute!!! haha, it was enjoyable hearing them~ haha, also realise e variety of singing tt is available, got actions one, which made e whole performance lit up and was real fun watchin.
at e end, there was as usual, a frenzy over audience tryin hard 2 search for their friends who performed. we went backstage in search of our friends and e backstage immediately become chocked with ppl loh, haha. me managed to give out all my flowers, see all e friends of mine with not much difficulty. haha, den leave for home cos i seriously tired like hell n my legs are sore for no reason n no programmes for me so go home le.
11:01 PM
Friday, May 27, 2005
今天拿到了自己去年CCA的报告，看起来空空无也，感觉上去年什么重要的事都没有做到。。看着那张课外活动的“成绩单”，去年的“战绩”少得可怜，心中的难过远远地胜过了拿考试成绩单的时候。那份“成绩单”是包括了我的心血、热忱、喜好，感情都全部放了进去，时间和精力也耗费了许多。然而因为自己不聪明，没有高人指点，不会现实实在一点，搞得自己现在如此狼狈不堪。。有些人不用付出那么多，但是他们懂得如何去做，在纸上的收获便非常丰富。我也不想再去思考这件事。。这世界是不公平的！这世界也是现实的！黑暗也是有的。。。眼泪，夺眶而出了。。。
10:51 PM
hard at work, hmmm...
1:09 AM
the 3 demure ladies~ ;)
1:08 AM
our bbq food~!!!
1:07 AM
me n yunz~ frienz 4 life ;)
1:06 AM
me, diva n zhiqi, heez~ =P
1:05 AM
yunz, diva n zhiqi~
1:04 AM
Thursday, May 26, 2005
its nearing e end of yet another term, one more sch day to go.. ppl start falling sick and their behavior starts getting out of hand.. haha, shall give an example on crazy behavior~
today after 2 hrs of prac, gp lesson and chem lect, still got 2 more hours of chem tutorial.. sian diao la.. so before our chem tutor rudy lee ah sam start gg thru anything, all of us go toilet to waste time a bit, lohz. haha, everything went on as per usual, nothing extraordinary until liting sudenly go crazy and spray water at the remaining gals in toilet who are yunli and yiwen (except me cos i was standing in e other direction and hooxinyu cos she is still in e cubicle) of cos there were screams initially den after yiwen n yunli recover frm e initial shock, they spray water back at liting for revenge. i was standing on e same side as liting thus me also kana spray water la. den liting want to spray water at yiwen n yunli again which made e both of them run out of e toilet screaming away.
next up, hooxy came out of her cubicle with a look of puzzle on her face and she got a welcome splash by liting of cos. screams can be heard once again loh, hahaha. she tried hiding from e water by retreating back to e cubicle, almost stepping into e toilet bowl which she die die wont admit la, hahahaha. this time i also ran out , laughing like hell liaoz. den after a short while, e 3 of us outside decide to go back into e toilet, not long after which we scream and run out of e toilet again. guess wat happen? haha, got a surprise attack from liting la. haha, we were laughing and screaming and having lotsa fun, thoroughly enjoying ourselves to bits. haha, after we exit e toilet, yiwen n yunli decide to walk off 1st leaving me to wait for hooxy n liting outside e toilet. just den they came out and i got another mini spray frm liting who used her hand to bring some water out of e toilet la.
haha, me laughing until stomach pain and face cramp after that la. haha, maybe it doesnt sound funny due to my poor narrative skill, but i did laugh until out of breath la. hahahaha, its been a real real real long time since i had such a great and long laugh liaoz. haha, ms wong is absolutely rite, in e future, its such memories tt will stay in our heart forever wo~ haha, lotsa thanks to yunli, liting, yiwen and hooxy for being part of this valuable memory!!! haha, morale of e story? be crazy and have fun whenever u can! anytime anywhere! hahahahaha =P
11:45 PM
hmmm.. do ppl get blue-black by knocking into a flimsy plastic stool? not only blue-black but is quite visible even with dark skin somemore.. and it hurts sometimes when walking... hmmm.. can ppl who love good food suddenly have no appetite even at times they used to be eating? hmmm.. i am seriously puzzled...
8:20 AM
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
juz want to comment bout sth b4 i start gg on bout e lep investiture.. sth not very happy or good but i jus have to get it off my chest, no offence, just my personal opinion, if any1 feel offended, i can only say i'm sorry. i've seen e ex-lep exco ppl n e current lep exco ppl working their hearts out in e hope that e lep investiture will b a success today. thus, i tried my best to ensure that as many ppl as poss frm 04S73 attends. what i can say is tt, if u reali dun feel like attending and have no intention of attending, i'll appreciate it tt i was told bout it frankly rather den found out wat a fool i've been later. i feel no angst, just hurt, tts all.. to those who turned up, thanks lots, it was reali veri much appreciated, u all rock!!! haha. =)
ok, lets drop e sad topic. from my pt of vew, today's lep investiture had been a success! great job for e 2 batches of lep excos! i feel that most of us enjoyed e performance & programmes u all put up for us! we had fun! haha, esp e short lame skit and e part with su lao shi!!! wahahaha, damn funny la! =) as usual, not all ppl turn up but there're still some who did. e lep spirit, me no idea whether it is still existing in others ppl heart, but it is for me. if there is e spirit in lep ppl, new lep exco, do further strengthen and increase it ya? if there isn't, do try to create it in e lep ppl ba. i know it seems to be e impossible, but do give it a go and dont give up no matter how hard it gets wo!
earlier b4 had e briefing for e J1s regarding e lep writing camp, haha, another funny incident. i keep saying wrong and funny stuff, for eg.
- 穿睡衣睡觉讲成换上另外一种衣服睡觉，我班的人想歪歪，听了笑到 beng!
- lifeguard @ swimming pool become bodyguard, hehz =P
- shorts allowed to be worn during e camp includes khakki shorts liaoz, make ppl laugh until siao loh, heez
i think it must been my face or my expressions or my voice or sth, ppl say i look fierce and intimidating, got meh? mayb got la, cos my class ppl aka jaspar, hailing, liting, wanxin, weisi, siyu, lijie n yuanyi, started doing some funny actions tt represents them being scared by me. it was damn funny la, make until me n boonxin n hweeshi laugh until want to cry liaoz. haha, we certainly know how to enjoy ourselves anywhere anytime, haha.
btw, saw hui suo today also! it was real clean and nice!!! looked like a room of some hdb flat la, great job man! hard on u all le! i'm sure e end will justify e means for u all de~ cont to jia you wo~~~ =<^-^>=
2:05 PM
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
today一大清早reach school on e bus 852, alighted with much difficulty as my sling bag is kiaped by sth or someone on e bus n i had no hands left to lift it away from obstacles on my way out of e bus (one hand holding file and e other hand holding a paper bag). finally managed to pull my bag out of way as i was e onli one alighting and everyone was like watching so i have to hurry.. when "touched down" at e bus stop, i got this bad premonition and decided to look at my bag, just as i expected, i lost my nurse piggy.. it mus hav been kiaped off from my bag somewhere.. i duno wat to feel or think liaoz.. its been e 2nd time.. guess i'll have to go action city and buy one more again..it isn't e 1st time i lost precious stuff given by other ppl; even if they arn't lost, they are damaged one way or another..when i was in sec4, a friend of mine diana weaved me a heart-shape keychain that has a bell in e middle with those nice strings used for friendship band and stuff, i happily hung it on my handbag and 1 day after cca, one of my close jnrs volunteered to help me take e bag and when we were on e mrt, i noticed that it had went missing.. it was nvr found..last yr, i lost a cute teddy bear given by my close friend biyi which had been sitting comfortably on my bag for a yr.. i have no idea where it went.. hopefully someone nice found it and will treat it well.. still e sense of lost is unbearable.. i also lost e 道具 ladybird which i pin on my bag.. i have no idea where it dropped from my bag.. sad sad..this yr,e 道具 J1s bought me a very cute nurse piggy tt i hung on my bottle.. onli days after hanging.. it dropped, my guess is that its been kiaped away from my bottle on bus 852 again.. so i went to buy one and e same thing happens.. jias n kailing bought a small pin for 行政 ppl, i pinned it on my bag and a few days ago, i found out that e design has fallen off, whats left is only e pin..i got a veri nice tube-like hp accessory with my name inside e gel frm ningfei and found to my horror that there're cracks and bubbles on and in e tube.. i had no other choice but to remove it frm my hp to prevent further damage.. my dear jnr angel mingtse gave mi a veri cute bear bear hp accessory and i accidentally broke e metal part ytd.. me had no choice but to use e string portion frm ningfei's gift and attach to e bear bear frm mingtse and hang it on my phone..why do i keep losing or spoiling e stuff ppl give me? i reali do not know... jus suddenly got this urge to blog bout e incidents.. pardon my lengthiness.. cant stop once i start..
7:56 PM
Monday, May 23, 2005
haha, just finish browsing thru 05S73's blog, reali had a gd laugh reading about their class outing esp e ubin part (with courtesy of ning fei) can imagine what was going on and its real funny. ok, den i shall write bout e concert part in details ba, heez.
before that went for dao ju dinner, supposedly to patronise e aj ice stall which was opened once again, but this time no more aj ice, sadz, sob sob. anyway, e turnout rate was quite pathetic la. j1s onli got zhixuan, jiching, yiyun, linmin n huaming. j2s got me, siokyee, kailing, weekuan, kaijie n deryl. also got e "old generation". haha, xiang bin got a hair cut, look so different that din recognise him on 1st sight, chua dｉo. he came over to our table to give us 2 packets of tissues he bought from e auntie loh. it was still fun even thou little ppl turn up n we din get to eat aj ice. haha, i bought desserts to treat e gals and as usual e guys came by conveniently to eat when e bowls were placed on e table, heez, eat until e table dirty. haha, there were screams along e way as e guys were disgusting la, they drop e spoons on e table liaoz den use e spoons to eat again, haha, 吓得jiching n zhixuan花容失色。haha, den duno wat happen to weekuan la, he started saying very肉麻and恶心stuff, 弄到我们全部人都没有胃口了啦！haha, soon e gals and me left, cos me n zhixuan got inspirations while jiching n yiyun sian diao liaoz.
haha, okok, now on e strings concert. me n zhixuan took 74 to coro to buy some gifts for mingtse n other ppl. on e bus journey, zhixuan duno刺激过度or what la, keep saying nonsensical stuff n end up we were like laughing like lunatics on e bus, heez. went coro den e flower shops were all closed! act expected la, so went to ntuc n buy chocolates instead~ den stupid zhixuan walk veri fast cos she say she dowan to be late for concert again, of cos me follow behind cos我大包小包嘛。her bdae gift n e chocs frm ntuc lohz, zhu yuan虐待zhuzhang, tsk tsk tsk, heez.
ok, den reach audi liaoz wait a while for beng^2 b4 we went in tgt. by den i was like喷汗（tts what beng^2 say) cos very hot la! haha, den we went to look for seats and book 3 more for joanne, georgia and ningfei who came not soon after. also saw many ppl like yinghong, zhiyu (library pres ;) oh), damian and chenshi(my sec sch friend!). 04S73 only got 4 ppl came to support jaspar: me, pow, hooxy n weikiat. haha, real pathetic lohz.
anyway, i sat with e jnrs n thru-out e concert we had entertainment frm ningfei la. zhixuan got 2 cute soft toys 4 her bdae, piglet n eeyore. she has her official opening of the plastics of e soft toys at audi and when ningfei saw e soft toys, he cannot control himself and keep extending his hands towards zhixuan to snatch e soft toys n violate them, heez. we were sitting in e order: ningfei furthest left, followed by joanne, me, beng^2, zhixuan n den georgia lohz. so of cos he cant reach e toys, but when i got it frm zhixuan to hug, he snatched it veri violently loh. tsk tsk tsk, poor piglet, his ears must hav hurt. also later he snatch eeyore and hugged it close to his chest while listening to e pieces. we were like saying what happen to our恐怖分子老大？超好笑啦！！！笑到beng啦！later zhixuan say after he hugged, eeyore长毛liaoz, hahaha. we tried to take a snapshot of him hugging eeyore in e dark but failed la, haha, also in e meantime we were trying to control our laughter after seeing ningfei. den during e interval we took a pic tgt~
after interval got mingtse solo performance!!! she is damn pro la!!! oh my goodness, i'm so proud of my angel!!! haha, also saw jaspar playing e bass and when e rhythm veri fast, he was like staring at e scores with eyes wide open and all tensed up, haha, it was quite funny la. after everything, we went to backstage to look for mingtse. i go look for jaspar and gave him e choc i bought for him and he immediately commented on my clothes as usual la, zebra lady! dotz.. -___-""" haha, ok den help e jnrs take photos with mingtse, den me take with mingtse too~!!! haha chatted a while with mingtse den go back look for jaspar cos hooxy, pow and weikiat come down also liaoz. we were talking about e CMI emcee who was basically a source of entertainment in e concert too loh, haha.
in e end, after e whole thing, e veri hungry ningfei (y hungry?read his blog entry loh) suggested gg out for supper but every1 veri tired liaoz (e ubin ppl joanne n poor injured georgia were drenched out, zhixuan and beng^2 went for class outing so tired too) so no one except me want to go den ningfei as usual tried all means & methods to make ppl go eat ＠ ＫＡＰ. in e end he failed n he bang seh me again, diaognz. shall not help him out in e future liaoz, hmph. anway, went home with georgia (yea, finally got e chance after so many misses n anticipation! :P) and tts e end of my account~! ;)
3:30 PM
Sunday, May 22, 2005
ytd watched e vjc harmoc concert @ their cool, spacious and comfortable performance theatre. today watched e hcjc strings concert @ our plain old simple audi. both are veri diff instruments but they each left a deep impact on me regardless. harmoc amazed me with its great range of music that can be played and how well it can go with other instruments to complement it. strings instrument amazed me with e way it brought classical music to life and how majestic it can be played.
music is reali good for one's soul, indulging urself in e pieces is jus pure bliss.. haha, but on long-term will become broke so must save up liaoz, heez..
11:19 PM
haha, shall attempt to write a more cheerful entry, heez. me gg to write in chinese so boonie, sorry le, niwae its onli sth bout rainbow..
有一天跟云丽和莉婷回家的路途中，在巴士上看到了彩虹！！！我已经忘了自己有多久没有看到彩虹了，所以当我无意间看见时，心里的惊讶、兴奋、欢喜是非笔墨所能形容的。彩虹代表着雨过天晴，无论现实的情况令人多么沮丧或想放弃，都会有希望让一切转变成美好的。难道是老天爷殷勤周到，在暗示着我不要轻易说放弃，要坚持到底吗？这一路来所发生的许多事情的确让我的心冷了半载，情绪也只有悲痛，伤心和烦恼。情绪起伏又很大，弄得身体也随之疲惫，整个人颓废了许多。现在，我想既然老天爷让我看着了彩虹，虽然只是昙花一现，但是以仿佛帮我打了一支强心针，让我能在坎坷的路上继续走下去。。。
actually i'm feeling very much beta liaoz, thanks to all those who encouraged me and consoled me. i'll try me best de~! e happy and smiley and cheerful xin yu will be back soon or as often as possible! ;) thx for all ur concern, u all reali rox!!! :)
2:05 PM
this day is a very good day for couples to take their vows at e rom, it is very easy to remember and thus convenient to the couple, esp for the guys: they can no longer give excuses on forgetting the anniversaries of their marriage.
marriage... for e couples that wedded on this day, will they stay on to one another til they are old and can no longer walk? can they guarantee that they wont divorce each other in the future? haiz.. nowadays, marriage has become insecure... if both couples feel that there is no longer love between them or that they can no longer tolerate each other, they divorce... marriage is supposed to be a life-time commitment, and it used to be that way... until now...
haha.. its getting harder and harder to find couples happily married and live together with their children in bliss all e way til they are old.. if 2 ppl are married, divorce should nvr ever appear in their mind at all, if it does den dont get married. what for be together and den leave in e end? it serves absolutely no purpose.
haha.. to me, marriage is still quite far away.. i may not even find e one for me.. but for now.. e phobia of marriage is inevitable given e trend in society nowadays.. scary.. haiz..
10:57 AM
Friday, May 20, 2005
猫的叫声。。。很恐怖！
猫的眼神。。。很阴森！
猫的爪子。。。很可怕！
猫的噩梦。。。很血腥！
猫。。。求你离我远远的。。。
6:17 PM
Thursday, May 19, 2005
haha..is mine a home?or is it jus a house?haha,i'm becoming more n more inclined to think its e later part for me liaoz..gg home..hui2 jia1..is tt my home?is there family warmth?is there a happy and blessed atmosphere?haha,i dun think so..i always get real cranky and bad-tempered when i'm at home because it doesnt feel like a home to me anymore..i agree i'm partly at fault but what can i do?i'm not e heads of household!e onli thing i can do is make e best out of e worst case scenario and survive thru it..e stuff tt still touched my heart and prevent me from turning heartless is my mum's concern at times and my happy r/s with 2 brothers at times..
i love u,u love me,we are one big family...haha...my happy family...disappeared into thin air one yr plus ago...onli in e eyes of outsiders...hahaha...
10:12 PM
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
haha..shldnt have watched today's ying cha yang cuo on channel 8..reminded me of my grandpa's death 1 yr plus ago terribly..i miss him so much..i miss e way he always asked me to eat more of my fav food..i miss e way he asked me hows sch been..i miss e way he asked me to work hard in sch and get gd grades..i miss e way he smiled when i massaged for him..i miss e way both him and grandma loved us..i miss e outings we'll have every weekend..but since his death,everythings changed,nothing is the same anymore..i nvr got to dream about him at all..is he angry with me?does he not care about me enough to come and see me in my dreams?tears keep flowing out my eyes like rivers after a heavy downpour..i feel veri depressed..need someone to talk to but can find no one at this moment of time..everyone's busy,troubled,stressed,tired..i shld learn and handle my emotions on my own..but i reali need someone to talk to..guess i can only talk to u,my blog..haha......
10:30 PM
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
today me blur blur one,reach sch early in e morning go toilet den misfortune befall on me.close e toilet door with my hand left there,'kiap' 2 of my right-hand fingers,ouch.thot it will b jus pain n nth else but saw to my surprise(or is it horror?) a drop of blood on e toilet seat,bleed too much liaoz.sob sob.in e end hav 2 endure with e inconveniences of writing with injured fingers,no choice la,who ask mi 'gong gong' until hurt myself.dao ju elections today,a happy ending i can say.at least most ppl are happy with e results(i think) and no tears dropped.haha..fatigue and stress catching up on me again liaoz..tmr got shi ci ce yan..now haven finish mugging..still got lep writing camp stuff to do..urgh..gambate to me le!
10:45 PM
Monday, May 16, 2005
haiz..deleted away my previous secret blog..despite keeping it private,i cant help worrying that someone will trip over my blog, read it and den sue me or sth for e diarrhoea of vulgarities..haiz..blog is not a personal diary,it is a public publications..we have to watch what we post,take care of our language and our personal opinions..haha..sometimes keeping a diary is beta iseneh?haiz..now i've lost my only outlet for venting of frustrations..*&^%$&%$^((*^()$^&*-screaming away fervently-
6:27 PM