Wheee!!! Today super high in school because I am finally able to be back in school in the dress code I had always wanted for a university student! T-shirt, jeans, sneakers & back pack! Yea man! Haha, I am practically bouncing about as I walk about in school today loh. Finally can walk without a sound around in school. Finally can walk and run without feeling pain in the leg. Finally can wear all my camp t-shirts to school for lessons. Last but not least, finally can not worry about clothes and shoes combinations to go school!

Super duper ultimate liberation!!! Haha, high to the max sia. Was tempted to go cut my hair short but was stopped by many around me. Hmmm.. Maybe when I go China then I cut ba. :P Haha, just joking!!! Time really flies, 2nd half of the semester is already here!! I can so feel the academic burden getting heavier and heavier. Everyone jiayou wor! We can do it! :)

Haha, so so so exciting! I have had my ever 1st biking experience along Singapore road on my dad's bike!!! It lasted for a whole 40 minutes and I dare not even show in any way that I am feeling nervous, anxious or even scared throughout the whole journey. Haha, because do not want my dad to be concerned about how I am doing sitting behind him and lose focus on the road while driving. I must say it was an exciting and liberating experience! Eye-opening too!

For the 1st time in my life, I seriously respect all motorbike riders for their guts. Can you imagine how scary it can be when cars and large-size vehicles just zoom past you, and some cutting so near you that your legs can brush against their exterior? I know car drivers do not like motorbike riders as they are people that they have to always keep a lookout for on the road lest bump into them unknowingly. But who will really want to ride a bike if you can afford a car? (this does not apply to people who really love riding bikes but to people who needs it as a form of transport :P) I vow to be extra careful to motorbike riders when I get to drive in future.

Therefore, to the motorbikers whom I know like Hock, Kian Wee, Mark and Zi Cheng, please please please be careful on the road! And to the many drivers out there whom I know, be nicer to them on the road lah, karma karma! ^-^

I think it will be a long time before this *hina milk scandal will even die down. Anyway, in case you have been too busy with school work and not been catching up on the news, below are the products found to be tainted with melamine by AVA:

1. Yi Li Choice Dairy Fruit Bar Yogurt Flavoured Ice Confection
2. Dutch Lady Strawberry Flavoured Milk
3. White Rabbit Creamy Candy
4. Dutch Lady Banana Flavoured Milk
5. Dutch Lady Honeydew Flavoured Milk
6. Silang — House of Steamed Potato — Potato Cracker
7. Puffed Rice Rolls — Butter Corn Flavour
8. Puffed Rice Rolls — Cheese Flavour

Be careful of what you put inside your mouth wor! :)

Thank you dinner is over! 1st & foremost, kudos to May gerger for the wonderful job! Even though you never delegate as much as mummy will wish you had, some of us still managed to help you with it, not leaving you to do so many things by yourself. You ah, siao one ah? tsk tsk tsk.. Banquet course style works! Haha, you have set a high benchmark too! ^0^

Anyway, back to TYD! Hmmm... many apologies for my super duper long video! I did not mean for it to be so long de! But it just so happens when I was alone zi pai-ing in the pantry, all the words just flooded my brain and came out of my mouth. Like what many people said, it must have been the 2 years in MC that resulted in me having so much to say. Paiseh paiseh but every single sentence was from the bottom of my heart with the greatest sincerity. :)))

Looking at the video, I only felt my heart stir when I was addressing the 28th. There is no sadness, no longing, no reluctance in letting go. Maybe this is what Jianwu means when he told me the 2nd term in MC will serve as a closing for my Arts Club life. Haha, and like what I always say, all my tears have already been used up beyond reserves for the past 1 year so no more left now. Or it is this huge sense of relief seeing the 28th stepping down together and letting a reliable 29th taking over that is overwhelming and overpowering all other emotions ba..

Well, no matter what, I am still surprised I made it to the very end as there really was a time in my 2nd term when I felt like giving it all up, when I felt that I am losing myself, when even the slightest incident can make me tear like a baby... Once again, I have to thank the wonderful people who have beautifully came into my life and made such a gigantic difference plus leave awesome-looking deep imprints on my heart. ;) 29th, jiayou le!

If you have been watching the news, you would have come to realise that a lot of things have been happening throughout the whole world. A lot of bad things actually. But one that really left the deepest impact on me is the one about *hina's milk product. It is just plain sad..

Initially, I thought it is just going to be any food saga about *hina's dangerous products. However, it turned out now to be more than just that. It has not just affected the *hina population but also many countries throughout the whole world, even Singapore. Due to contamination of their diary product which is not detected earlier, babies start dying due to kidney failure. The most innocent victims ever... My heart ache just thinking about their parents, especially their mothers... Ouch..

Next up, we come to realise that the milk product is more extensive and widespread than we thought. It is in fact used to produce many of the food and snacks which many of us loved, like chocolates and ice-creams. That sort of explains why we can always buy our food stuff cheaper now right? Because their ingredients come from *hina and is cheap. We have seen how the irresponsibility of a few people in a country can affect so many people throughout the world. Is this the result of globalisation? Of rapid industrialisation and fast-paced development? I feel that this is something which all of us can think about but may not be able to come to a conclusion...

这是为了一位学长而写。因为不善于面对面表达自己，因此曾经想过写封信给他。但是几经思考后认为对他不够公道，所以便决定使用这个管道。

当天或许是我说错了话，玷污了你的付出和成就，非常抱歉，根本并非本意。必须澄清的一点是，我想要让大家知道你以前所做的一切一点也不容易，都是天时地利和情况所逼而造成一些些的不完美。尤其是自己在同一个位置上后，我衷心尊重你这位学长。但是当晚的笑声和喧闹掩盖了我的话语，大家都没有听清楚。会做这番澄清是因为在乎于你的交情；对于我所做的和说的我则问心无愧。希望我的歉意能被你接受。

卸任咯！一时之间，这一切仿佛是梦。做了这么久，不是说放就放，说忘就忘，心中百感交集。让我静静回味，或许能从中得到解脱。我的泪水，似乎已经干涸了，这应该算是好事吧。:)

I wish I can fall asleep and never have to wake up ever again.

好人早死，要多好才能早死呢？

Cleared up the whole clubroom yesterday with Samuel and the two of us managed to make the clubroom look nice and clean once again by removing all the rubbish. The amount of rubbish that we threw away is really scary. Samuel had to make many many rounds to and fro clubroom and rubbish bin at Central Forum there before everything is thrown away, out of sight and out of mind. I even cleaned up the long-dirtied floor and refrigerator, and I must say the smell radiating from the fridge is enough to make everyone throw up their meals. Lucky I did not eat so nothing to throw up. Kevin joined us later to help clean, thanks lots Kevin!

Cleared up the rag site today with Kevin and the two of us just keep going to and fro rag site carpark and clubroom with the trolleys and the parts of the float. Finally the rag site looks acceptably clean even though the rag display has not been set up. I am too shagged to stay on further to help, with the rain soaking my clothes and hair, it does not feel the least nice. I can finally answer to the Dean's Office for now. Zikang came down from the clubroom to help us shift the sorted angles to the shed, thank you very much Zikang!!

I tried hard not to think when I was doing all the clearing, I am afraid to let my mind run off. But nevertheless it did once in a while. I have to fight it back before I totally lose it. Why am I still doing all these at this point of time? Why do I still have to do all this? How did I land myself into such spots? As per usual, I will self-psycho and say that all these is for the big picture, all these is worth it. But as time passes, I sound less and less convincing to myself. Haha, I am really tired already, both physically and mentally. Someone please take over me, I want to step out. Just hope at least there are some people who are appreciative, but as per experience, shall not have too high hopes lest feel greater disappointment. Shit Happens Everyday, Just Do It...

It has been a hell of a week... Did so many things that I forgot what I did... Haha, was so engrossed that I lost track of the days of the week. Bet a lot of us did that a lot of times. This is going to be a super random post because I am super shagged liao. Does not help when I am having the thing of the month today, sianz.

Shall share happy things!! I manage to get another test date for driving le! haha, lucky me, hope i can get my license before i leave for sep! speaking of which, i just got the confirmation letter from nus stating that i am an exchange student next semester going peking uni!!! hahaha, so so so exciting and so so so happy! finally something solid and confirmed, i almost thought i got rejected at one point of time. also, before going for sep, i will be going for yep to yunnan in dec! this is going to be another new journey which i will embark on, looking forward to experiencing it myself! the only downside is that i wont be able to go for my close cousins' wedding!!! boohoo! anyway, back to happy things. i finish my agm report!!! muahahahahaha, so so so shuang! went down to the shop to see a sample of it even! it looks so chio! OMG! haha, know I bhb but cannot help it because it is my baby after almost 30hrs of on and off work at it.

a lot of thoughts have been crossing my mind these few days... I have been thinking, hard. nowadays I keep going home for the slightest reason possible. I just miss home, I miss having a place I can call home. a place that used to be my home is no longer so... I need another place quick. I am very tired holding on, very tired to continue doing. just how much longer can I last? once again, I hate myself behaving like this... one moment I can be so hopeful and the next moment I just wish I wasnt who I was the moment before. getting confused? me too, I do not know what I am typing already. signing off~

Haha, I just cannot help myself but blog about my great sense of achievement in terms of academics!!! I finally touch my readings, like after 4 weeks! But it is better late than never! The massive sense of empowerment I feel after scrutinising through my notes and readings, it is beyond words man. Even though still have a lot to catch up (well, I am afterall in Year 3 and also having lagged behind for so long), marking one after another of my readings as DONE! is an enormous motivating force for me to keep on going.

Next week is definitely going to be a hell of a week for me because I need to complete the AGM report in order to get it out in time. Gambatte neh!!!

An important lesson in life, which will be more applicable when you go out to work next time but nevertheless useful now when the situation arises. :)

If you are the only person who will be in deep shit for something not done, do not sit there and rely on the help of others. This is because in this type of scenario only you can help yourself; if you have to do it yourself, you have to do it yourself.

Xin Yu, look far ahead, see the big picture, and keep the determination going...

PR1101E - Printing tips in Central Library is back by popular demand!!! Haha, yea right, I am just trying to be funny. :P Anyway, felt that there are new things in the library now for printing so shall share my insights!

1. You can now dispense your print jobs inside the photocopy room! If you see the usual queue at the computers there too long, walk a bit more and you will find that you can get your readings or notes much faster!!! ;)
2. You can even bring your thumb drive/access the Internet to get your notes/readings! No need to specially bring your laptop or get a computer inside the library to do so liao. So haps right? But do take note that only the inner 2 computers of the 4 inside the room have such functions wor. Do not queue wrongly! Will look super kok. :P
3. There are new photocopy machines that accepts only ez-link card now! Ok, I am going to show how auntie or cheapo I am now. Yes, it is convenient but you have to pay an extra one cent with every usage of the machine! I know one cent not a lot, but if you use the machine 1 time a day, 6 times a week, it can still add up to quite an amount dio bo?

That's all from me! Yea man, we all love printing/photocopying notes & readings!!! ^-^

Yea man, I failed my practical driving test for manual class 3 license yet again! Wheee~~~ Once again, I got a super anal tester who don't give a damn that your view will be affected due to heavy rain. He marked down every single minor mistake, and some were really subjective. I am just super duper sian diao but I will not give up! The motivation for me to learn driving is still there, I still have some time to achieve my goal! Never say die! Yea man!

Anyway, my dad went to borrow his friend's car so as to allow him and my mum to fetch me from NUS to BBDC where I take my test with only 1 hour's sleep. No matter how broken or abnormal or problematic my family is, at least I felt that I had the best parents and family ever today. The warmth from home just overwhelms me. On one hand, it really makes me feel recharged and happy. On the other hand, it seriously makes me feel guilty and bad for having prioritised other people and activities/events over them. These few days, the realization that I am not as strong and independent as I would have loved myself to be hit me. I do not want to become reliant on someone or something, other than myself. I think it is just my self-defence mechanism.

So many things so little time!! The last lap, my last try, everything will be as sui sui as I am able to make it to be (I hope). Let it go and just move on. Finally closing the chapter of my arts club life. :)

Some things can be anyhow spread and anyhow said, whereas some cannot be. Especially so if the other party who hears it may have a chance of taking it, or has already taken it, as the truth. My point being? Speak responsibly lest experience the wrath of the victim, all just because you think it is funny.

Fellow Arts peeps, this year's NUS Students' Arts & Social Sciences Club 29th Management Committee Internal Elections will be held on
3rd September 2008 1830hrs at LT10!!!


This year will be very exciting as there are going to be quite a few candidates running for the top few positions. It will definitely be good to see who will be the ones leading the club to greater heights in the coming year correct not?


Therefore, if you have no pressing tutorial assignments due the next day, please do drop by LT10 on coming Wednesday wor! :) You can ask them questions too! So exciting!! :P Hope to see ya all there~!

Just got a call from home, spoke to dad, mum & brother. My youngest brother is having his 1st N-level paper tomorrow and he is not feeling confident about it. He called me when I was busy with ROP camp on Sunday, I felt a damn strong pang of guilt not being able to be there for him when he really needed me to do so... This feeling sucks man... I can only stay in school and hope that everything goes well for him for his coming N-level... I miss home all of a sudden.

Shall share more in detail on my thoughts & sentiments again. Just want to say that I feel a sense of relief after so long. I am quite sure I can step down in peace more or less already. ;)