讨厌自己那么懦弱。讨厌自己的情绪那么轻易就被你们影响而显然没人在乎。讨厌自己如此幼稚的想法。讨厌自己将心掏出却不得要领。讨厌本来漂亮的心情被不经意地泼了一整桶冰水。讨厌这一切的一切。讨厌事实原来是如此残酷。或许我已经不再属于你们专有的小圈圈，讨厌自己如此愚蠢地相信这些友谊值得厮守。也许，之前默默所做的事不再重要，除了笑自己傻还能做什么呢？离开吧，放手吧，遗忘吧。

有心，容易让心灵劳累。有心，轻易被无意伤害。有心，其实一点也不简单。有心，为的是在乎的人开心。有心，不代表不需要别人操心。累了，怨了，哭了，干了，好了。

Sometimes I would like to see this world and all the stages which we have to go through as a playground and its respective game challenges, so that I wouldn't feel too bad about exploring options and doing things without having to worry too much about possible consequences and repercussions. This is especially so for things which I have absolutely little or no prior knowledge and experience in. I hope to experiment and not take things too seriously at times.

I guess a lot of people have already told me it is not worth it, but I usually brush it away. However there are times like now which I feel I have really wasted all my time, effort & energy, so what if I keep giving in without asking for return? I am being taken for granted.

I can choose to live life happily, why allow myself to be upset over certain things? But I have a feeling once I do that, it will be a road of no return for many things. Haha... why be bothered with people who don't care about you already right?

Life in itself can be quite a challenge. There are just so many decisions to make, and so many crossroads to face everyday. And the best or worst thing about life is you will never know if your decision is really the right or most suitable one.