hey ppl, i'm one of the organisers for this event that is coming up in a few weeks' time, on 17th March 2007. it is called food hunt!!! haha, for those that love food and/or fun, this is the one for you! join with your friends to form teams of 4~! for more details, please check out the following blog, http://fassfoodhunt.blogspot.com or the following website, http://foodhunt.nusartsclub.org if not, can either msn/sms/email/call me!!!

haha, last few days really been slacking like mad. no academic stuff, no non-academic stuff completely.. so much so that it feels very insecure & stressful because i know everything will come down doubly hard once i go back to school.. never mind la, no matter what comes i'll just deal with it as much as i can. because there is just so much one person can do only, no point being harsh on myself, easier said than done though. :P

anyway, been house-visiting so much that everytime when i reach back home i am totally shagged. firstly because house no car so take public transport here and there plus need to walk a lot most of the time to save money. secondly because we went to a lot of places!!! for the 3 days from Sunday until Tuesday, my family and i visited like 10 houses which is a lot judging from what i hear when i ask around. went around and the same few questions were bombarded. this year very sad because got people say i grew fatter!!! oh no!!! crisis crisis! must go jogging everyday already. :P it was not a very happy chinese new year for more reasons than one, but i shall not dwell on them ba, no point..

haha, last part of last day of new year for me was spent at the pasir ris downtown east chalet at rachael's 21st birthday party!!! it was with the raggers and we had a lot of fun and laughter! haha, it was super duper fun! we took a lot of photos as evidence oh! haha, i also end up being suan-ed because i was wearing a skirt but action wise still very man like put leg on the bench while standing. we also ate and talked and played quite a lot of stupid games. there was a vulgar one whose punishment is to drink up water/coke! goodness la, after playing that game when everyone has left, i have to go toilet three times to totally clear my bladder la! the 1st time i drink water until want to vomit also loh! haha, but it was really fun. i've got a feeling the happy and good times are coming to an end.. but at least i did have those few days of happiness rather than none! haha, thanks to everyone even though you all also bully me. :P happy chinese new year to all~! :))

yesterday was one day whereby I enjoyed myself a lot a lot! haha, this is because I went back to Anderson Sec to visit my students and teachers!!! oh man, I really miss my students a lot, plus the teachers too!!! for the teachers' side, there were not much changes but there were some surprises here and there because two of the teachers got pregnant and are due for delivery in April!!! hahahaha, so so so happy for them! and it is so exciting!!! hahaha, they look so blissful and serene and happy with the little life growing inside them! really admire them for being able to find someone who loves and cares for them and build a happy family together with them! so sweet!!! for the students' side, they have all moved on to become Sec.2 students already!!! time really really flies!!! haha, end up I've to climb up one more flight of stairs that nearly killed me because I rushed down taking a lot of things with me and didn't sleep much the day before. all the guys have shot up!!! a lot of them taller than me already!!! haha, all my students were shocked when they see me because I cut my hair short and that is the 1st time they see me with short hair. their reaction is super funny, make me laugh until cannot make it. but they say i've grown fatter!!! oh man, I must go on diet already!

it always feels very good to see the students doing well, to have them call you teacher, to talk to them and listen to them... I get emotionally attached easily to things I do and the bonds that I've forged with my students will definitely be one that will stay on inside and with me throughout my life. thus, they are still able to control and sway my emotions easily. but there are some students that really changed so much it hurts me a lot in the heart that they are doing harm to themselves on their own accord... I am also at a lost at how to deal with those students.. I think I should go and learn how to handle them and help them change for the better. Sometimes I feel really sad at not being able to help them more, listen to them more, talk to them more because I am too pre-occupied with other things.. but I guess I have to live with it because it is impossible that I will always be there for them, might as well let them learn to settle it themselves.

then I chiong-ed back to school for lecture after which went about doing stuff and attended the NUSSU Rag & Flag meeting which I shall not comment. Then me and Mei Ling went to Chinatown to meet Jingyi, Jing Jun, Chuan Seng, Bobby and Lay Pheng!!! haha, we went down there to experience the festive spirit of Chinese New Year and we really had a lot of fun buying very very very cheap muah chees!!! hahaha, we were just going crazy basically. we also saw Xu Zhen Rong and Xie Yun Yi filming some TV8 programmes!!! haha, we made a commotion when we saw them and was almost called by Desmond Koh to stand in front of the camera and say Happy Chinese New Year la!!! hahaha, so embarrassing!!! hahaha, but it was fun! after which, Bobby and Lays had to leave so the remaining 5 of us went to Shenton Way Partyworld to K!!! hahaha, it was the most happening, hilarious and unforgetable K-ing experience I will ever have. we were just enjoying ourselves going crazy and doing stupid things to have fun and make one another laugh! i was so shagged after singing la, 1st time eh. ;P then we went to Singapore River there to eat breakfast, talk talk and wait until the sunrise before we departed. it has been a long time but I'm glad I did enjoy myself lots! hope there're more of such outings!!! ^-^

haha, been busy again for the past few days so didn't have time to blog about my special day until now! hahaha, my friends commented that my blog has been having too much pessimistic and depressed entries for its own good, so I shall take every opportunity I have to blog about happy things when I have the chance to! haha, these few days I have been really happy, except when an incident happened on yesterday.. never mind, it is all in the past so I shall just pick myself up and move on, haha. ;)

actually my birthday is just like any other day because I have to go for lessons and things just carry on as per usual, exceptions were only the one & a half hour kick-boxing that made my legs all sore now and the ordinary meeting that I really loved and enjoyed! the whole management committee members sang birthday song for me and Joshua! I was kept smiling for the whole day from all the sms-es that I received! I was in a way kept busy trying to reply everyone, but I feel so so so blessed!!! so many people actually remembered my birthday! my students too!!! haha, it just suddenly hit to me that my presence in this world actually matters to some people, feel so honoured sia. :P the night before I also got friends calling me at midnight to wish me happy birthday!!! they are Nick, Mich & Mei Ling!!! thank you for making me laugh immediately on my birthday! also Jeremy who made me laugh with his early well-wishes online. plus Yuan Yi for calling me up to wish me too!!! haha, I also received a few presents!!! was only expecting one from the management committee members but nothing more so I was pleasantly surprised. a very cute porcelin piggy bank from pork, earrings & notebook from my foodhunt committee and the latest CD of Fish Leong from MC!!! woooohooooo!!! haha, I think I have some more presents coming from Yun Li and Sars Kor. ;) I also received the sms from him! haha, despite everything, the sms from him at the very end was really the best finale I can ever get to end my special day~! haha.

there were people who remembered, and of course there were people who forgot... it so happens they are people closer to your heart and it also so happens they got attached already... is there any link there? I am just stirring shit but it definitely hurts a teeny weeny little when they forgot... but never mind because there are so many people who remembered! why should I be bothered with those who didn't? once again, thank you every single person who has made my special day memorable and happy~! xin yu is loved and she feels super duper lucky & fortunate to be surrounded by such good friends and people around!!! :))

hahahaha, today is a very very very super duper fulfilling, busy and shagged day!!! haha, after lecture finishes, i've been kept busy wrapping up flowers for all e guys who want to give a surprise to their gal friends. actually it is quite fun to wrap flowers esp when u see that e end product is what u want it to be and the customer gives you e smile of satisfaction which i din get to see most of the time :P

hahaha, actually today very very very happy because my foodhunt comm members celebrate my bdae for me!!! haha, even thou it was one day earlier but i reali reali reali appreciate e thot since all of u are like very busy w other stuff also! i din expect it e least, haha, i must say they did a gd job at hiding. ;) i also received a lot of flowers from the guys in my MC~! haha, so sweet of them!!! hahahaha, today is a day when i smile and laugh a lot. guess it's been sometime but i hope there'll be more such days!!! cui now, shall go rest!!! hahaha. ^-^

Ah... hahaha, that was the reaction that most of us have when a bat flew into the clubroom today! ooops, no longer today liao, it was yesterday already. :P anyway, the bat just flew in for no purpose or reason!!! and then it did not jus flew in and out eh, it flew like at least 3 rounds around the clubroom before leaving loh! jingyi and jingjun was so freaked out they went screaming out of the room to stand at the entrance there. and then when the bat was leaving, we heard the both of them scream again. Haha, it was definitely a scene to be remembered for life. I guess all of us were shocked as nvr in our life will we expect ourselves to witness such an incident ba? and the thing is it is not any flying insect or bird but a BAT! goodness, how often do you even get to see bat outside? to think one actually specially flew into the arts club room eh. haha, must be our aura too attracting liao~ ;) crapping, but i am happy~! (:

Friends somehow change when they get attached... hahaha, sad case isn't it... suan le... i shall learn to accept it! (:

I really have no idea that my decision will affect so many people so much... That was the least I would want it to happen.. Realised how selfish it was of me to implicate others because of what I personally feel and want... I am sorry for the trauma you all went through yesterday, I am glad that I did not continue with my course of action... Once again, I am sorry. And also thanks for making me see the meaning in continuing with the commitments.

oh my goodness... cant believe that time passes so quickly! i am not even accustomed to my lectures and tutorials as yet and one month has already passed? time ah time.. slow down a bit if not i cant catch up liao... for once, i miss home, hahaha.