one week of mugging and block-testing.. its very confusing as in the past week, time seems to past very quickly AND very slowly at the same time.. time will pass us like bullet train when we are doing the examination scripts or when we are trying to "download" everything on our inches-thick notes into our heads the day before the examination, bhew! and one moment later you will find that you have no time already; time will also crawl past us like snail when are having a tough time mugging or trying to bring ourselves to mug lohz.
haha, basically, i'm physically and mentally drained now, but somehow, i feel a great sense of achievement despite knowing real well that i will again not do well in all subjects; even for lep, the only one subject that i used to have most confidence in.. even though there are lots of times when i seriously comtemplate the option of giving up everything and leaving school once and for all, i persisted and now, i am glad that i did. this block test has been a different experience for me from all the past tests and examinations. because personally, i feel that this block test is the best test i've ever done since i come jc, i've given in my best and studied all i could and i feel real good after most of the papers(not maths though.. i was badly hit and looked "lian qing chun bai" after it, according to xiao xuan^2). though the fact that i wont do well or pass nagged very much at the back of my head, i couldn't be the least bothered with it and I AM HAPPY! =)
it may sound quite pervertic(does this word exist?hmm..), but i cannot help but like the examination period. the thing is not only me thinks so which shows that i'm perfectly normal lohz. i cannot specify the reason but i think i'm starting to like mugging, that is when i understand what i study wonderfully and everything stays in my head. because you feel like you are so clever and knowledgable with the whole chunk of information embedded in your head la! i just hope i'll be able to attain that state when a-levels near.
my last paper is next wednesday!! and it is lep paper two!! haha, poor me but i am feeling quite glad as i can enjoy and relax myself a bit, at the same time have comfortable time to study lep, the subject that i still have passion for. to those taking chinese history(shunjie, guohong, cuiyi etc), hard on you all le, two super combo heavy subjects nex week one after another, do jia you lots wo~!!! hmmm.. will be going for this moe tea session at the moe building tomorrow on chinese teaching scholarship. haha, i see my future le! a chinese secondary teacher at anderson secondary school, spending the rest of my life passing on the great wonders of our chinese culture and my passion for it to the future generations of singapore. haha, it will be hard but i know i will be loving every second of it! haha, know its a bit too idealistic and far-fetched but i can always dream right? heez. ;)
after lep paper 2, straightaway got biology lecture, haiz, back to reality immediately after block test for the 12(excluding jaspar) of us out of 200 over people in S7. then go fengyi house to practise her song for the upcoming competition! yea! haha, really loved her song a lot and hope our practise will make it perfect!!! on thursday got ge fang~! woohooo~!!! friday is anderson st. john ambulance brigade's ROD!!! after such a loooooooooooong time, i'm getting to see all my darling juniors le!!!!! miss them lots lots lots!!!(haiz.. again.. is it mutual? haha.. i do not know.. shant brood too much on it le..) on saturday, will be going out with yunli and liting as we promised earlier to take neoprint!! haha. =P also got the ge fang outing to kbox after block tests!!! three cheers!!!!!! haha, i'm looking so much forward to next week after the lep paper two, in the meantime, i will continue to mug hard and try to enjoy myself de! haha. ;)
6:59 PM
Yours Truly
A little girl
learning to live in a big big world
and trying not to give up things she believes in despite everything
