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Friday, July 29, 2005

actually dont feel like blogging about what happened yesterday to my mood but i guess i have the obligation to do so as i've worried quite a few people with my facial expression yet again.. haiz.. why does my face show how i feel so obviously??? if only it doesnt.. anyway, ytd was a confusing day? i had my share of fun during P.E and during the show @ esplanade, but was in the deep abyss of depression(did i use this correctly?) at the same time.. firstly, i'm sorry for worrying those people yesterday aka the chinese society juniors who went to watch the show by jack neo and thanks to those who were ever so encouraging and understanding and supportive like justin, chujie, peihan, xinhui, yingjie&cherylene. thanks because all your concern really warmed my heart. =)

lets start with my "dinner" treat @ plaza singapure by my pw group leader, xavier(hey, thanks a lot for the treat!!! =D), at secret recipe! haha, 1st time going such a place to eat in my life where anything you order will definitely be close to $10 one. i ordered marble cheese and strawberry milkshake instead of a set meal as i had to rush back to hwa chong for the arts fest and i dont have much time to eat. while waiting for my food to be served, i went to look for the muah chee xiao xuan^2 and shell want. haiz, i really have to agree i'm stupid, i went to the basement to search in vain, walk round and round and round before finally sms-ing xiao xuan^2 for the location then knew that it is @ the food court instead, haiz. so went up food court and manage to buy 2 boxes of muah chee(one pandan one original) and 2 pieces of crispy pancake then rush back to secret recipe to eat my food.

i was happily enjoying my cheese cake(it was really delicious, the cake was so smooth it just slides down your throat!!!) when peihan called me and say there's a ticket for the jack neo show(the last chinese helicopter) as ningfei cannot make it. haiz, so in the end i have to change plans and go watch the show instead of arts fest(sorry david didi, i bought the ticket le! =( ). not only that, as i've to rush back to school to pass the food to xxx and then back to esplanade for the 8pm show(it was already 6pm at that time), i had to gobble down the cake and the milkshake when it was supposed to be savoured slowly? it was hard as the mixture of the cake with the milkshake was so smooth and so thick at the same time so rushing it was quite hard. then i ran to the bus-stop to wait for the bus to school, my stomach was feeling weird and uncomfortable liaoz. on the bus, got a call from xxx asking me where i was and we settled to meet at a bus-stop so as to facilitate our exchange and i can rush off to esplanade straightaway. also spoke to peihan and asked him to help me carry my bag to esplanade(thanks ph, my bag very heavy i know..thanks thanks) then i sat there quietly for the bus to reach school.

that was when my mood made a turn for the worse, i just suddenly feel very depressed and saddened.. guess i was pretty stressed out at the thought of like 4 tests and all the hw due for next week ba.. a few tears rolled down my face.. finally reach school le and pass the stuff to xxx then i went to the bus-stop to wait for bus 171. waited for a very long time, so frustrated and still feeling bad, tears fell again and the same thing happen on my bus journey to esplanade. i dont know why but i just feel like crying very much and sad thoughts of everything from studies to life keep flooding my mind making it worse. i was drained, both physically and mentally when the bus finally reach marina center and i had to figure out how to go esplanade again. i was rushed for time and my mind was blank and i was quite at a lost at what to do and where to go. i just followed my instinct and walked on, i had to cross a major road with lots of cars(the one in front of suntec city) and in the end i just anyhow cross risking myself being knocked by a car and getting horned by that car but i couldnt be bothered as i have to get to esplanade.. then i keep running and jogging all the way to esplanade with my ankle protesting slightly and shoelaces coming free, i really feel like giving it all up and just sit down on the floor and break down in tears along the way. but i didn't, i ran to esplanade at last. stupid me again, went up to theatre studio instead of the theatre and had to run up and down in vain.. then still go wrong side somemore.. haiz, ask the customer offices for my ticket then 一直吃闭门羹。。。finally got my ticket and went in the theatre, it doesnt end here, i have to excuse-me to a whole row of people so as to get to my seats at the middle of the row.. when i finally reached my seat, i just plopped down and i really felt like crying out loud but i didn't, i manage to control myself. but i was quite anti-social so was quite reluctant to response to the junior's queries.. sorry beng^2 and yingjie.. i didn't mean to be dao de.. ok, that's the end of my encounter accounting for my facial expression at esplanade..

now, on to sth happier, the show! i have to agree jack neo is 真的很厉害，一个人撑起全场的观众，令人不禁对他佩服不已。it was real funny hearing him niao about people and issues and other singapore stuff. the 1st half just hearing him talk and laughing like hell which lifts up my mood greatly! haha, i really laugh until peng, it was during then that i really appreciate at my relatively good exposure to dialect which allows me to grasp what jack neo was saying and laugh together with many others who also understood. then came the interval before the actual drama starts, to be frank, i was pretty offended by the second part.. the way he made fun(maybe not make fun but making funny rather) the death ceremony and everything.. maybe to those who have never ever encountered the death of closed ones, you'll find everything jack neo says very funny and ticklish as they're what you observed from other people's death with cold eye from the side. but for those who have experienced the death of closed ones.. whatever he says that sounds funny pricked on your heart and it doesnt feel good, i could not bring myself to laugh.. i cried when the show starts at 1st because the death of his ah gong in the show is the same as the death of my ah gong a year plus ago.. i didn't really enjoy the show in the end but i could not deny that jack neo is capable to be able to do such a show single-handedly on the stage. after which went home, bathe go online a while and sleep as i am really very tired..

11:54 PM