now at lep room using computer, finally get to come my blog after such a long time!!! haha, i've officially moved into hostel since tuesday night!!! haha, up til now everything has been fine for me regarding my life in hostel so to those who were worried, i'm doing fine! except for my stupid sprained ankle la!!! grrr.. anyway, i've got three very friendly and warm roommates living with me, two sajc jc1 gals (a malaysian and an indonesian) and a hcjc jc2 who moved in to hostel with the same motive as me. one sad thing is that they dont speak chinese one!!! argh.. suddenly i'm forced to brush up on my english speaking which is very bad and broken and really cannot make it one la.
by the way, i'll be going home today and moving in ALL my stuff from home to officially begin my mugging and lifeless time in the hostel.. so sad iseneh.. haiz.. but guess i'm left with no choice if i want to do well in a-levels so that i have no regrets and get the moe teaching scholarship next year! everyone wish me luck ba! haha, i wish everyone best of luck too!!! it is getting more and more scary day by day as the date of our prelims get closer and closer.. but up til now, i know i wont give up as i got many people supporting me and giving me encouragement! especially as i've got his card and sms with me all the time! it serves as a huge motivation!!! haha.. everyone jia you wo~!!! =) no matter what dont give up because it'll be over soon de!!! trust me!!! by right i should be on my way to chinatown for dinner.. actually have been thinking about whether i should go or not since i heard of it.. under the persuasion of the juniors, i decided to grace the occasion with my brother until today.. i changed my mind after thinking about it thoroughly.. i decided not to go.. i made my mind on my own, it has nothing to do with anyone else. i can understand everything.. i know how it feels.. i know that i do not really belong no matter what.. i'll never belong.. i've never been through tough three months with them.. no matter what, i'll still stay as an outsider.. i know who i am.. i can fully understand.. suddenly, i can feel the way lin dai yu felt when she was shut outside jia bao yu's house.. i guess this is just the way of life ya..? this is how relationship between people work de.. this is how people think de.. this is what i can never ever change de.. why is it so sad to be human? why is inter-personal relationship so complicating.. so hard to manage.. so hard to control.. haha.. actually i really have no idea what i'm typing now already.. just sitting in front of the computer and typing away.. waiting for time to pass by so that i can go home with my brother when he is back from the ju outing.. oh no.. i'm becoming more and more like lin dai yu... hahaha... sprouting nonsense, dont waste time reading the above entry... suddenly feel so alone.. hahaha...
6:55 PM
Yours Truly
A little girl
learning to live in a big big world
and trying not to give up things she believes in despite everything
