to those who managed to see my earlier entries(which i have deleted), i'm sorry for exposing you all to the streams of caps and vulgarities.. i'm feeling much better le anyway, so long as i dont think about it and nothing causes me to think about it.. to those who consoled and encouraged me(peihan, fengyi, xiaoyuan & xuetying) thanks lots! i'll def give in my best for this sat de! i must sing it well and do wanxin proud for her great effort put into writing and composing the song. in the meantime.. i'll still try my best to sell the ticket to people that i know.. i dont approach just any cat & dog.. i really only asked those that mean something to me..
its very saddening and depressing when you find others being so heartless and cruel to you.. but i guess there's nothing you can do other than be ignorant of it and live on cheerfully? i did consider changing drastically, being very cold and hard and devoid of emotions after being hurt.. but i realise i cant do it.. i'll still care and give like i always do.. and also because there're people who do deserve the treatment i give.. sometimes i'll think and become very worried over whether what happen for my sec sch friends and juniors will happen for my jc friends and juniors.. *shivers* i sincerely hope that doesnt occur...
however, its also very touching and heart-warming when people tell you, "oh, so you are competing/singing?! ok, i'll go and support you!" shall look more and the bright side of life and the better variety of people.. if not i'll break down totally.. haha..
8:01 PM
Yours Truly
A little girl
learning to live in a big big world
and trying not to give up things she believes in despite everything
