Wednesday, August 31, 2005
prelims and a-levels coming up... stress that i'll have to face sooner or later is building up exponentially... i can feel myself behaving abnormally... in terms of mood and interpersonal relationship... i am having mood swings... a lot more and at increasing frequency... i can no longer control effectively on how i want to think and feel... its beyond my control le... i will in the end always be left totally drenched out... i am beginning to demand on my own more from my friends and people around me aka my juniors... it is really very unreasonable but i keep hoping that they can be around as and when i need them... they will always understand how i am feeling and be sensitive to what i am going through... this is very bad... i get pissed off easily... tired easily... depressed easily... i am starting to forget how to really smile naturally and happily le... so just a note here to everyone around me, if i am behaving abnormally or badly, just take it that i am crazy and dont be bothered about it or be affected by it. i can no longer smile le.. do pardon me.. dont be offended if i am insensitive from now onwards or my tone gets harsh.. i no longer have excess energy to deal with people nicely and properly.. i hereby apologise for whatever i may do during this tough period of mine.. lastly, everyone cont to jia you and mug hard ba...
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