Wednesday, August 31, 2005
yesterday i got a pretty good taste of how bad hostel life can actually be.. i was feeling weird and drenched out yesterday night.. body felt cold one moment and then hot the next moment.. if you are not feeling well physically, your mental state cannot be any better right? so i was feeling real down yesterday night.. there was no one to talk to.. no one to complain to.. no one to ask for attention to.. no one.. just me and my 3 just met room mates.. it is a very terrible feeling being all alone with no one caring even if you die the next moment.. tried sms-ing someone.. hoping to find someone to cheer me up.. he was insensitive to what i am going through at that moment.. his reply stunned me for a moment before i can come up with a reply.. i know he didn't mean that.. but it made me feel worse.. sick & alone.. no good at all.. i miss home.. i miss school.. i miss laughter.. i miss smiles.. i miss craziness.. i miss being healthy.. i miss being physically well-abled.. this month is not for me.. this year is not for me.. this world is not for me.. blabbering again.. sorry..
10:52 AM
