Wednesday, September 28, 2005
haha, finally some time for me to be alone back at home and thus blog in peace. hmmm.. actually there's a lot of things i want to talk about.. so think this will be another of my long entry as per usual, do pardon me ba, heez. and got people ask me to blog more often so that they can read blogs when they are stressed from all the mugging. i would very much be willing to do so but the hostel computers does not allow me to blog! i can only blog when i use the lep computer or when i go back home like now. ok, i promise to blog as often as i can. haha, actually it is a way for me to destress too, heez. for the past 2 days have been going school, to clarify something, it is not that i love school so much i want to go to school everyday! its just that i have got stuff to settle in school like passing some notes/papers to juniors or getting something from them or just help them out academically to the best of my ability. and there is no lunch provided in the hostel so i have to find somewhere to eat my lunch or i will be eating cup noodles back in hostel lohz. so i will stay in school to mug and in a way i can see the people i care more before i finally leave hwa chong officially on 14th of october? back to today, i went school in the morning, mugged a bit, ate my lunch, did a mini shopping in the school bookshop and then went back to hostel to pack my stuff for my swim with liting and then later my overnight stay at home. something happened when i was packing! haha, i heard scrumbling noises coming from my food store drawer under my bed when i was packing. initially i thought it was just my ears playing a trick on me. then i heard the noise again and i was like thinking to myself: dont tell me a cockroach is having a feast on my junk food!!! it sounded like the cockroaches at home feeding on the food in cupboard so came my first thought. i peered under my bed into the drawer carefully and i saw a rat like face peer back at me and my next thought was: oh man, it is a rat feasting on my food!!! eeek!!! then i caught myself in time: eh.. the face looks familiar.. hmmm.. oh ya! it is the hamster of my room mate who got lost last friday! i was so excited and elated that the hamster was found! haha, i was about to go and buy a hamster for my room mate when i go home la, seeing my room mate so lost and sad when the hamster was gone. haha, the naughty little hamster actually went for a trip around our room la! haha, it went to my food supply after being hungry for days, but too bad its teeth not sharp enough so unable to feast on my apple rings, heez. after which i put it back into its container where it kept drinking water, haha, it must have been dehydrated liaoz. haha, i am just so glad that it has been found le. after which went swimming with liting after her lep s paper le.it is really nice to swim! so relaxing, so shuang, so fun! haha, chatting in the pool also very nice! haha, after which board the bus 852 for home. haha, its been such a long time since i board the bus le. then went shopping at northpoint for all the stuff that i need in hostel with liting before finally going home. went home at around six plus near seven but got no key and no one to open door because my whole family went outside to eat liaoz. haha, so i went to the neighbouring coffeeshop to watch my ci zi cheng long!!! haha, yea, nice show. haha, then like the tv at the coffeeshop is so huge and flat screen wo~ haha, watched finish before my dad came and we walked home together. reach home then there was a frenzy for quite a long time as i went about getting all the stuff i need in hostel. pack my stuff, listen to both brothers talking at the same time, listen to dad pouring his sorrow, go online chat, watch tv and bathe! haha, really so much thing to settle, so much to tell, so much to listen and time passes really fast. no matter what i hear or see, it is undeniable that being back home feels good and comfortable. my mood lifted up greatly as i feel like i have always been at home and i also got to see my dogs again!!! haha, realise that i actually miss home when i come back. if not, i am just as ok being in hostel ba.. haha..hmmm.. being back home.. guess my emotions are mixed? i am happy.. but at the same time i am sad.. sad at the state my family is in.. on the surface it looks ok ba.. but.. the ugly side is always hidden from outside view de.. my dad is ultra harsh on my two brothers now.. hitting them whenever they are disobedient which happens quite often given the nature of my two brothers.. discipline may be good.. i am just afraid my dad will overdo it and my two brothers cannot take it then i have no idea what will happen.. i dont want to think what will happen.. my younger brother is doing pretty well in school which is a relief to hear.. i am just scared that he will crack under the pressure my dad puts on him.. if any of you happen to chat with him online do help me council him a bit ok? thanks a lot le.. my other brother.. he is not doing as well.. his bag got stolen recently.. his hp is lost too.. he is using penknife on his hand also.. not as deep but much more than.. my dad no longer trusts him and just keep threatening him to obey him only.. saw my cousin, andy's blog.. read about what happen to our grandma.. why didn't you tell me about it when you saw me today.. she is also my grandma.. i am also concerned about what happens to her.. i am rudely shocked to learn what she went through 11 days ago.. only from your blog.. i dont know.. guess most of you can understand now why i dont go home often after staying in hostel and why my stay is often so brief and abrupt? it is such that i will enjoy more of my stay, i will see less of what saddens me.. guess i am just running away from reality.. allow me to.. i cannot handle it de.. at least not until after my a-levels ba.. just hope it does not get too bad in the meantime..think i should not be blogging about all my sad stuff le.. so sorry.. haha, shall talk about some happy stuff now. hmmm.. i finally managed to get in touch with my long-lost anderson juniors!!! miss them so so so much! so nice to chat with them again!! haha, feels so nice.. just to hear their voice again.. chatting with them eliminated all the sad and bad thoughts from my mind, i only feel blissful, blessed and happy when i chat with them.. it is so nice.. it has been so long.. time passes real fast and it has been two years le.. but no matter how many years has passed, the memory of them celebrating my 16th birthday will be forever engraved in my mind.. it has been the best birthday of my life til now.. will there be memorable birthdays for me in the future to replace that memory? because it brings both smiles and tears.. it is so contradicting.. but i shall have no expectations so that there would not be disappointments but only surprises! haha. =) chatted with quite a few of the juniors and i can conclude that they are all very stressed! haha, aiyoyo, dont be so stressed out ya? i know of many who cannot finish revising everything so those that cannot dont be too worried ya? must must must take good care of your health ya? falling sick now will be so unlucky!!! if cannot get everything in head but got the ample energy to perform during exam is better than having all in head but cannot perform due to lack of health or rest ya? whatever it is, just give in your very best, as for the rest, try not to worry as much because i dont think what help it does when you worry over all those stuff lohz, serious. ok, it is very late le, got to go school tomorrow still, everyone take care oh! =) if need someone to talk to or people to ask about academic stuff, just call me as i got free incoming calls and i can afford to take a break from my mugging! dont need to worry about disturbing me as i can still afford to help you all until after promos de ya? and it is the least i can do before i leave hwa chong too.. lastly, continue to jia you! gambate!!!
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