Saturday, October 15, 2005
jus experience the most drastic change in my mood.. haha.. didn't know a person's mood can change that fast until today.. my dedication for all the juniors got read out today!!! i was so excited and happy when i heard the letter being read out! all the words that i meant to say to all the juniors read out by the deejay! my birthday wishes for my brother and ningfei! i was imagining that many many juniors would tune in to yes933 and hear the dedication followed by the song which is wang fu's mi ni qun! then i'll have many people sms-ing me that they heard my dedication! my face was flushed and i could feel my heart beat faster! haha.. but no.. it turn out to be the opposite.. total opposite.. such a great difference that i cannot accept it and mood really fell down to a bottomless pit.. do pardon me.. i had such high hopes.. it being my first letter to yes933 and the words being such heartfelt.. the disappointment that hit me was thus equally strong.. i really feel like crying out.. haha.. think nobody can understand how i feel at all.. no one except myself.. but guess i can only have myself to blame.. for not publicising it before.. it is all my fault so juniors please stop apologising...but... ahhh.. =(haiz.. guess i'll leave the words i wrote in with my letter here in my blog and hope more people can read it now.. guess my prediction that my efforts will go down the drain came true.. haha.. such irony.. i even forgot to record down e dedication!!! how i wish time can go back to 10.30pm... ='(对学弟学妹之言：猪长！馨玉！Senior!馨玉姐姐！每一种称呼都能让我心中感到无比温馨和安慰你们的存在让我华初的生活添加幸福也因为你们，我对离开华初十分感伤千般不舍，万般流连看到你们开心健康，心中感到释然看到你们伤心难受，心中感到悲戚要好好照顾自己知道吗？感谢你们的支持和鼓励感激你们借给我的耳朵和肩膀一起度过的时光，收藏心灵深处请包容我的唠叨罗嗦，关心担心你们已成为我的习惯你们要多多保重，时时保持联络好吗？永远牵挂着你们。。。
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