somehow, i think that when we are encountered with problems and obstacles in our life, when we are faced with immense stress trying to solve all those stuff, we will think a lot, think about a lot of things that may seem out of this world.. like why do we have to live on? why are we born in the first place? why are people so afraid of death? why does life even exist in the first place? what happens if every single organism, whether animals or plants, so long as it is a living species fails to reproduce, no longer struggle for survival then every single living matter will die off on this earth right? why must life exist? why must we try and live on? if every single thing does not exist on this world.. would it not be better? why is all of us struggling for survival? what is the purpose? what for?

sometimes find that living on has no more meaning.. sometimes find that death is the better alternative to life.. why do people define commiting suicide as a foolish act? who are they to define what is right or wrong for other people? why is living on, struggling to survive and slogging your heart out not foolish then? why can't the choice to die be an encouraged and clever act? haha.. guess i am really losing my mind ya? haha.. i guess a lot of people are living on not for themselves ba.. they have responsibility on their shoulders.. to support their parents.. to support their children.. to support their friends.. to support other people that rely heavily on them.. living on for other's people sake.. haha.. but i guess living on for others make our life meaningful ba.. at least we have a purpose in life.. we know why we exist right? haha.. ok.. shall go mug le.. if not i'll just talk on more about unnecessary and rubbish stuff only.. all j2s cont to jia you oh! i'm not giving up so you all must also hold on oh! =) all the best~