Monday, February 27, 2006
hahahaha, yea, i've got another mascot assignment yet again!!! this time i'm one of the hamtaros!!! hahaha, it is so much fun as usual! really take off all e stress i accumulate in work today la, almost broke down lohz.. haiz.. take my hat off students nowadays that i can only say. it is always so nice doing mascot stuff! 1st, u get to do funny actions and stuff behind e costumes. 2nd, u get to meet lots of nice, funny and entertaining ppl&have fun together!!! hahaha, for those who're interested in watching me doing my current mascot assignment, it will be this coming saturday(4/3) and sunday(5/3) at e civic plaza near ngee ann city there. it is under some programme or activity organised by kids central de. for saturday there'll be 4 shows, 1pm 3pm 5pm 7pm; whereas for sunday there'll be 3 shows, 1pm 3pm 5pm. haiz, e only sad thing bout this assignment is that i wont be able to go watch huang cheng ye yun zong cai 3~!!! i'm so sry.. i promised to be there but in e end i cant.. but nvm, i'll go back on wednesday and thursday early early to help full time!!! huang cheng is ending, everyone treasure e remainin moments ya? i'm still hoping i can jus go back to e days where i have huang cheng.. haiz.. hope this yr will be another miracle come true like last yr! u all can de! gambate!!!
11:17 PM
Friday, February 24, 2006
oh my god, the news is finally out after so much aniticipation. so it has been decided that my doomsday shall be on the 1st of March 2006, wednesday! oh man, why not friday.. i still have to go back school and teach on thursday and friday still de leh.. like that how will i have the mood or feeling or passion to teach after seeing my results..? haiz.. die liaoz.. feel so bad.. feel so scared.. haiz.. but there's nth left to do now that e release of results will soon be out.. what's done is done like what he said.. i guess so too.. now can only use work to make me feel numb against this news.. dowan to think about it.. i'll only imagine e worse.. jus pray very very very hard that my results wont be as bad as i thot.. hope i can get satisfactory results at least.. keeping my fingers crossed even tighter... to all out there, good luck too~! cya ard~
5:00 PM
Friday, February 17, 2006
hahaha.. i've had a full taste of what office politics is.. want to know how it taste like? terrible, horrible, revolting, bitter, spicy and every other disgusting taste you can ever imagine in this world!!! hahaha.. i cannot go into detail for fear of getting into more trouble with be it my school or even moe.. haha.. really feel like crying out loud again everytime i think about that matter.. but i have no one exactly to cry to.. it really feels very hard to hold it under cap in my heart.. it feels real terrible.. sometimes just feel like taking 1 week mc to let myself neutralise my feelings and thoughts before i can teach my student properly again.. i've been too harsh to them and i'm feeling very apologetic but i can't control my mood anymore.. i jus want to break down and cry or even faint and go hospital.. anything but face the office politics.. i thought i could handle, i thought i could control.. but i guess it is too much for me le.. i'm still young! i'm still a teenager who hasn't really enjoyed her life fully as yet! why do i have to endure all those stuff??? i just need to vent off, dun need to ask me what happen cos i wont say de.. just let me vent it out.. just let me have a chance to cry it out.. i really need to do so before i really go IMH.. hahaha...
9:28 AM
Thursday, February 16, 2006
haha, i just turned 19 ytd wo~!!! hahaha, actually duno why i'm laughing like i had a great bdae with lots of activities lidat. actually it is just e opposite. haha, actually i got a reason to be happy la, because he rmb-ed my bdae again this yr!!! althou his sms a bit de late, only came at 9pm ytd, but it really brightened my day!!! haha, guess loving him quietly and silently will be enough for me le, heez. :P sometimes it is really for e beta tt u expect nth from anyone cos u may end up super disappointed, i guess e case sort of happen for me tis yr ba.. only hav myself to blame ba.. jus feel like crying everytime i thot of it tt's all.. haiz.. 2 impt ppl nvr sms-ed me at all ytd.. and they're like e friends i treasure? haiz.. suan le suan le.. i guess they're too busy w their own life to bother about other things ya? i can understand.. haha.. but like what one hc jnr told me, i'm jus helping them think of excuses which i shouldnt b doing so! haha.. who ask tt i'm their friend? talking nonsense liaoz.. haha.. so e best thing is still not to expect ath from anyone, everyone reading this blog must learn this lesson wo~ ;)another thing, haha, emotion been going thru lotsa turmoil for e past 2 days.. cried like hell in e staffroom today for full 20minutes to let off e stress and eth tt's pressing on my heart for e past month on.. haha.. in e end went to class feeling super horrible and shagged to e power of infinity.. den bad mood so extra fierce to students during lesson.. end up i feel super bad again.. haha, guess i finally reached e low point of my teaching career after being in ninth heaven for so long ya? haha.. let me tell an irony, e work of teachers only has 10% of teaching! e rest of e time? doing sth else except teaching, veri sad rite? but i guess i've to live w it if i reali want to consider e teaching job.. hav been thru so much.. hav seen so much.. everyday jus feel like using tears to wash my face.. esp these few days.. haha.. i'll act happy!!! but i'm not! but i dont want ppl to worry for me so those reading beta not if not i'll b angry!!! and i wont blog anymore!!! jus let me have e freedom of this outlet to vent my frudtrations and eth w/o having to worry bout worrying ppl ok? i've been treated like duno wat back at anderson but i'm glad to have my students still, if one day even they make me lose hope in them, i may jus quit e job, who knows? hahaha.. but i'm most most most fortunate to have a great bunch of jnrs both at anderson and hwa chong tt can w/o fail lift my mood up whenever i'm w them!!! i'm real fortunate liaoz, so i'll be happy and live on cos he also want me to be happy everyday. :P haha, end off on a happy note~! =)
11:51 AM
Sunday, February 05, 2006
i've seen for myself too much failed and unhappy r/s.. whether be it marriages or just bgr.. haha.. i'm living in a soured marriage everyday myself.. haha.. love is not permanent.. people change.. nothing will stay.. my ambition of being a housewife shall never be fulfilled.. i'll nvr marry.. few good man still left in this world.. and myself is not a good woman to be paired with good man.. hahaha.. i've given up hope.. i guess i'll just dedicate my life to students just like my primary six form teacher.. e students will be my children.. hahaha.. this isn't say say.. i've set my mind.. r/s and marriage are just not my cup of tea.. hahaha.. 婚姻只不过是爱情的坟墓。。爱情只是个害人害己的游戏。。哈哈哈。。。
4:30 PM
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
haiz.. i duno wat to say also.. no one is to be blamed for this phenomena.. but i pray hard tt e j2s tis yr wont have to face e crisis of serious manpower shortage tis yr.. i can only say e j1s are missin out on sth real good.. and i can only say tt they s*** for bang seh-ing hc and giving hc false hopes den let hc fall flat on e grd.. jus hope they change back their mind in time.. hc shld not be leng qing.. hope i can see a more lively hc next time i go back?hahaha...
9:10 PM
