Thursday, February 16, 2006
haha, i just turned 19 ytd wo~!!! hahaha, actually duno why i'm laughing like i had a great bdae with lots of activities lidat. actually it is just e opposite. haha, actually i got a reason to be happy la, because he rmb-ed my bdae again this yr!!! althou his sms a bit de late, only came at 9pm ytd, but it really brightened my day!!! haha, guess loving him quietly and silently will be enough for me le, heez. :P sometimes it is really for e beta tt u expect nth from anyone cos u may end up super disappointed, i guess e case sort of happen for me tis yr ba.. only hav myself to blame ba.. jus feel like crying everytime i thot of it tt's all.. haiz.. 2 impt ppl nvr sms-ed me at all ytd.. and they're like e friends i treasure? haiz.. suan le suan le.. i guess they're too busy w their own life to bother about other things ya? i can understand.. haha.. but like what one hc jnr told me, i'm jus helping them think of excuses which i shouldnt b doing so! haha.. who ask tt i'm their friend? talking nonsense liaoz.. haha.. so e best thing is still not to expect ath from anyone, everyone reading this blog must learn this lesson wo~ ;)another thing, haha, emotion been going thru lotsa turmoil for e past 2 days.. cried like hell in e staffroom today for full 20minutes to let off e stress and eth tt's pressing on my heart for e past month on.. haha.. in e end went to class feeling super horrible and shagged to e power of infinity.. den bad mood so extra fierce to students during lesson.. end up i feel super bad again.. haha, guess i finally reached e low point of my teaching career after being in ninth heaven for so long ya? haha.. let me tell an irony, e work of teachers only has 10% of teaching! e rest of e time? doing sth else except teaching, veri sad rite? but i guess i've to live w it if i reali want to consider e teaching job.. hav been thru so much.. hav seen so much.. everyday jus feel like using tears to wash my face.. esp these few days.. haha.. i'll act happy!!! but i'm not! but i dont want ppl to worry for me so those reading beta not if not i'll b angry!!! and i wont blog anymore!!! jus let me have e freedom of this outlet to vent my frudtrations and eth w/o having to worry bout worrying ppl ok? i've been treated like duno wat back at anderson but i'm glad to have my students still, if one day even they make me lose hope in them, i may jus quit e job, who knows? hahaha.. but i'm most most most fortunate to have a great bunch of jnrs both at anderson and hwa chong tt can w/o fail lift my mood up whenever i'm w them!!! i'm real fortunate liaoz, so i'll be happy and live on cos he also want me to be happy everyday. :P haha, end off on a happy note~! =)
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