i've decided, or more like my dad've decided and i chose to listen to him for e 1st time.. i won't take up e moe scholarship even if i'm offered one le.. i won't b a chi tchr straightaway when i've graduated from uni le.. i'll most probably work as a chi journalist at a company tt belongs to some relative of mine.. my dad says it beats being a chi tchr who doesn't earn much but have to slog like hell.. he doesn't approve of it whenever i spend extra time or money on my students, he finds me being very stupid and naive.. my dad is very practical.. i can understand from his point of view but he cannot from mine.. he cannot understand tt even thou i'm at a disadvantage a lot of times at sch being a relief tchr, i still enjoy myself thoroughly.. initially i was very defensive of my ambition in becoming a chi tchr straight after i finish my uni education.. but after a while.. after hearing from a lot of tchrs who are close to me.. i realise tt my stubborn-ness in my ambition may not be good for my future.. e tchrs ard me are advising me not to come into e education career, they were like advising me to go out and try other jobs 1st rather than diving head 1st into e teaching career. they told me that i cld go into teaching after working at other jobs as teaching as a career is for life. i shld go out experience other careers before coming into teaching for good and i cld just teach until i'm old andf frail. after careful consideration, i agree with what they say, i agree with what my dad say.. sometimes human cannot have e best of two worlds.. what u like is what u like, it may not be able to give u a bright future or allow u to support ur family comfortably.. i finally decide to give in.. i won't be tt stubborn in my pursue of ambition le.. i'll give in to e real life.. i'll be a chi journalist tt can have a better earning with not as much a workload as a full-time tchr for as long as my brothers take to become fully independent.. after which, i'll just quit and devote e rest of my life to e teaching career le.. just hope tt there'll be no more changes from now on? haha, i doubt so as e world is ever-changing.. but who cares? so long as i've planned e road to take i'll just follow and deal w e things tt come along e way one by one ba.. :)