haha.. now looking back at my previous entry, i sound too optimistic to be true.. i guess so.. cos its only ytd and tdy that i realise i wasn't really that cheerful and wasn't really that ready to accept my results, that is e C for my higher chinese. i finally cried today, finally mourned for the death of my best subject's grade.. e irony of life is just too great sometimes.. haha.. why e sudden change of feeling.. y e sudden down-ness.. cos i went to visit a relative ytd who told me my results shld have proven to me tt i'm not tt gd in chinese so shld think of pursuing other courses in my uni days instead of sticking deadly to chinese studies.. he said i shld concentrate on e 3Bs instead of giving them up for a C subject.. i was so so so hurt when he said tt.. and my dad supports his thinking and also tried to get me to change my mind with regards to studying chinese in uni.. no one can understand how i feel for chinese.. it is not just a subject to me, it is practically my life! if i din take chinese in jc, i wld have been in IMH already! lep and chi soc was like e medicine i take everytime i did badly in other subjects or i wasn't feeling ok.. chinese meant so so so much to me, if not for chinese, i wld have dropped out of jc.. it has been my sole pillar of support in my jc days.. no one can understand.. i wld rather get Cs for all my other subjects if i get A for my higher chinese, it wld have felt beta than what i'm feeling now! i'm just feeling real horrible.. need to vent it out.. guess i'll take a while to feel beta after this.. ppl need time to get over e death of sth, i'm not an exception...
10:26 AM
Yours Truly
A little girl
learning to live in a big big world
and trying not to give up things she believes in despite everything
