i really hate all e hussle tt i nd to go thru after spending so much time&effort in gettin e a-lvl cert.. uni application.. scholarship application.. so much admin work.. so troublesome.. so confusing.. so irritating.. sometimes those things really make me feel like giving up further education opportunities and jus go into the working world straight.. i feel so lost.. haiz.. at e same time i seriously lack e motivation to go look up all e relevant info i nd to make my future course decision.. i'm really tired.. i jus hope to get all of these over and done soon!!! haiz.. after finally deciding on my course and uni, i still have to worry about backups just in case my application gets rejected given my higher chinese grades at a-lvl.. i really hate this.. i dowan any backups.. i dowan to study any other course except chinese.. why does it have to be so troublesome.. if my application gets rejected, i might as well go work instead of wasting money torturing myself w studying a subject i'm not interested in and end up wasting all e time n money in sch. but all e adults ard me were like telling me die die must go uni even if i'm not studying e subject i want.. its my life! why do i have to be affected and troubled by ppl ard me! why do i have to listen to them?! i really hate this.. despite all.. i still have to plan for backups.. so my backup will b either studying socialogy/social work in nus or chinese in ntu liaoz.. i'm sick of all these le.. may it be over soon...