i've jus given birth to three.. sets of exam papers. seriously, e setting of exam papers really drain a person e same way as childbirth does to women lohz. now i'm mentally and physically drained but e sense of accomplishment at seeing e 3 sets of exam papers nicely done and printed was unbelievable, almost surreal. i couldn't quite believe myself when i managed to complete printing all e 3 sets of papers w/o any more anomalies, i checked for 3 more times before e realization tt i've really finished setting all my papers finally hit me. even though it wasn't my 1st go at setting papers, this time was much more demanding as there're a lot of things to take note now that it is sa and not jus any ca. i jus hope it'll pass under e scrutiny of e sec1 level coordinator more or less such tt i dun nd to make much changes anymore. haha, so all in all, i'm happy for e week liaoz~ :P ahahaha! ;)

haha, today managed to invite him out for lunch cos need to pass him his bdae present as it is his bdae tmr!!! poor him, tonight have to go back in at 8pm and hav to celebrate his bdae in army liaoz. shall sms him tonight at 12midnight sharp to be e 1st to send him bdae wishes, hopefully. jus heard tt his grandpa is now in hospital in critical condition.. will pass away anytime soon de.. he's suffering from some strange illness whereby his brain gets infected by some virus and this only happens to like one in a million ppl.. can see tt he is qt affected by this news.. so we got tgt for lunch at amk hawker centre where i saw one of my student! haha, thank goodness she din see me, if not duno how to deal w such a situation too. over lunch we started chatting bout e usual stuff, asking how each other is doing etc and tt's when i got to know tt he's actually suffering from e same ailment as me, sensitive nose tt gets reali irritating at wrong times.. my condition is beta after many yrs of medication but his is qt serious.. so after lunch&after i gave him his present, he went to visit his grandpa whereas i went home. then i decided to meet up w him again on e same day after he visit his grandpa to pass him e medication i have on sensitive nose and all e places where he can get treatment for. i called up ppl to ask and took my only bottle of medicine left for him as his condition is much worse than mine. we met up again at yck mrt station, by then was already raining liaoz, i passed him all e medicine, all e address and taught him e diff accupoints where he can massage when he has some free time. jus hope tt his condition will improve ba, haha, this is such a boliao entry actually. jus me being self-engrossed. do pardon me. :P hehehe. *blushes a bright red* ;)

it happened ytd, i thot there'll be some snrs who will go back and shoot e potential leaders of chi soc from my batch. i dun expect much, mayb one or two but in e end none turn up!!! diaognz, so i'm like e representative from my yr la? haha, anw, luckily got more older snrs who came back, xiao p, zihui n a deng guang snr. i'm proud to say i did shoot some questions at e potential leaders even though i was very nervous and scared that i'll say sth wrong or ask sth stupid. i made e qn go thru my mind at least 5 times before i had e courage to finally raise up my hand and ask. believe it or not, my heart was beating super fast and i can practically feel myself shaking liaoz. i tried to act nonchalant.. hopefully my acting was good enuff. :P all in all, althou not very happy bout e 8 tt got into exco, shall not specify here, but i'm very glad w e final 2 leaders of chi soc for e upcoming yr. 2 gals w lots of potential and leadership with totally diff working style, hopefully they'll be able to work wonderfully and e chemistry they produce btwn them will ignite e whole chi soc for greater heights! even thou it is so so so cliche, i'm still gg to say. huang cheng rox! chi soc rox too~ e j1s this yr jia you! make huang cheng 2007 a success too!!! :)

haha, i went back ytd to hc after gg back anderson in e morning to do work and then holiday inn window on e park restaurant for a st.john function. it was a busy, tiring and at e same time fulfilling day for me ba, haha, such a day means some life to me apart from teaching and marking and teaching and marking lohz. and so i went back for xiao huang cheng!!! haha, it was ok la, got some grps spent more effort, got some grps jus self-entertaining rather than putting up an item which left us snrs seriously puzzled and blur, and of cos got some grps tt put up gd performances also. ;) shall not specify also lahz, haha. scarly e jnrs start finding their way to my blog den win liaoz, for one i noe rui xiong has. :P anw, so i went back and i got my super belated bdae gift from my 73 jnr company!!! haha, beta late den nvr wo~ haha, it was my biggest and most wished bdae gift ever~!!! a super duper big and cuddly bear bear!!! so so so cute cute cute!!! hugging it brings so much comfort!!! haha, thx thx thx lots to all who burn a hole in their pocket to buy me this wonderful bdae gift! i'm sure it must have cost a bomb, feel qt guilty liao lohz. nvm, shall make up by treating e bear extra good! shall bring it to sch where i can hug it when i'm feeling down or stressed! e bear will remind me of all my nice nice nice great great great cute cute cute jnrs!!! thx lots once again! cya all tis coming sat~ ;)

It is really hard to attain a balance between being a nice and strict teacher.. if you're too nice to ur students, they take it for granted that u're still their teacher so in e end doesn't do ur work or take u seriously.. which means bad bad bad when u want to collect their work or teach proper lessons in class.. if you're too strict with ur students, they start to hate u and go against whatever u say and even go to e extent of scolding u in their book or sms.. which also means bad bad as u wont be able to have a good or easy time to teach them in e future.. til now, i'm still struggling to attain a balance.. but failing to do so most of e time as i'm after all human and i do err.. being e perfect teacher is an impossible task as we all have qualities that will affect e way we behave or act thus becoming not perfect. seriously, it is not easy being a teacher, and even harder if u want to be a good teacher to ur students in all ways.. u have to pay.. so to all out there, no matter how much u hate some teachers, give them e most basic respect as they deserve it for taking up this role in society.. i regret not treating my teachers better in e past now that i know how great it is of them to be a teacher.. i'll still work hard! my students are my emotion controllers now~ :)

there was this incident not long ago.. my dad and 2 bro had left for m'sia to spend e hols there while me and my mum stayed in spore. it was a period of bliss for me.. total bliss.. it so happens tt on e night they came back.. e gas was on with no fire.. e gas was leaking but me and my mum had no idea as e both of us were in e room watching tv.. my dad was super angry as he said if they'd come back a day ltr me and my mum would have died.. haha.. i would be most glad and happy if i'd died on tt day.. or even die now.. death is really a release.. since living has lost its meaning.. death is a beta choice isn't it? beneath my smiling face actually lies a crying soul.. hahaha.. if i were to die now or tmr or anytime soon, i'll die a happy person.. life has lost its meaning.. i'm tired of living.. i really am.. i really am..