shall do a very long entry on my relief tchr life for this past 4 mths, those not interested i'm pretty sry but nd to say it out if not i'll burst, hav been keeping it for a long time liao ma, 4 mths leh, lohz. heez. :P jus one more thing, below are solely my own personal opinion, if there is any mistakes or biasness do pardon cos i'm human after all. ;)
RT=permanent tchr i dunno about other relief tchrs at other schs la, but basically tt is wat i feel lk being a relief tchr in anderson. taking classes, having remedial lessons, going for meetings, setting exam papers, setting worksheets, printing notes, planning lessons blah blah blah. i'm seriously thankful to e fact tt i din go and take up another part-time job other den my relief teaching cos i wld not hav e time and energy to deal w another job! i practically almost stay in school for at least 10 hrs everyday. i duno why i always stay back so late, mayb cos i mark things slower which is reasonable as i'm still new at teaching. or mayb cos i do too many additional things w my classes which means extra work for me. other than teaching, there're many other event and stuff tt we relief tchrs do. basically, we're lk permanent tchrs, except tt we're not trained, we're not tt well-paid, and one thing which i'm grateful for, we're not req'd to do a lot of admin stuff.
RT=free labour this again i duno about RT at other schs, but wheneva e sch nds help or some tchrs nd help, they'll turn to e relief tchrs. i have to clarify, i'm not complaining. i'm willing to help out, esp tchrs. when i see how much they go thru everyday and how hard it has been on them as tchrs, i'm willing to help them in anyway when they ask me. althou there're times when some tchrs are a bit over, or asking u to help when they can do it themselves, i'm still happy to help as i know they'll help me too. there're also times when ur help is not appreciated but i'm ok w it cos i'm happy myself. i'm also happy to help as e tchrs there have been real great and supportive to me, i feel at home in sch, thus i'm willing to help when they ask me to. for e sch, there're so many extra events tt we'll be asked to help out. for eg recently, everyone has to prepare for e upcoming big SPEECH DAY tt'll take place next thursday. both me and yunli were put in charge of e backdrop tgt w another chi tchr, and specifically e sch logo. we were asked to paint e sch logo! now do i nd to say again, my art has always been real bad. but i'm thankful tt i was once in daoju back at huangcheng(daoju rox!) as i was den able to use e skills and techniques learnt back at daoju for e paintin of e sch logo. e end pdt amazed both me and yunli as we thot it wld lk ugly but it turned out otherwise from afar!!! it looks so so so nice!!! oh man, at e moment i feel a super great sense of achievement! even thou my shoulders ache from all e painting, it was worth it. even after e sch logo was done, there's still e rest of e backdrop left which we'll hav to complete on monday liaoz. haha, shall ask some of my great 1-students to help out. den there is this fund-raising activity in sch where i've spent nearly $50 on ba, buying concert tickets.. buying cookies.. buying keychains.. haha, think e money i earn will jus go back to e sch and e students unknowingly liaoz. but its still ok cos i'm happy~
RT=maid haha, actualli i think it applies to tchrs in general la. we're lk slaves to our students in e sense tt we do wateva we can to satisfy their learning needs, we mark their work meticulously, we try and think of things from their perspectives to make their learning fun and enjoyable etc. but it doesnt come back, e students take u for granted den u'll feel so idiotic. haha, but i guess its lidat de ba. so i've learnt to jus do my part to my fullest w/o bothering whether it comes ard anot. i've also learnt tt sometimes reasoning w students is useless, talking reason to them is a waste of time cos they dun understand! scolding does help but it tires urself out physically and mentally so no point. haha, i guess from now i'll jus use rewards and treats to "cheat" e students into doing wateva i want them to do nicely ba. haha. so sad leh? sometimes i give up asking them to do so i can spend afternoons helping them paste their papaers properly in books or helping them file their stuff. haha, den hoh jus ytd, i got a student who asked me to help him buy electronic dictionary cos he said he "went home" liaoz. asked me to pay for him etc, i feel lk i was his maid at tt time so can aga aga guess his tone and e way he asked la. it turned out he din go home, he was outside w friends to buy new spectacles. diaognz. i've to say again i'm not complaining althou i sound lk i do, i enjoy doing those chores too, for students who're good la. for those who're not, i'll jus count it as my bad luck lohz. i also carry e books up and down myself, thank goodness for my daoju training once again, haha.
haha, despite all, i still enjoy my relief tching times. i admit tt i'll complain a lot to a lot of ppl, but after eth when i ask myself if i want to b a tchr, e ans is still yes. i duno why, i find it crazy after wat i see at anderson w all e permanent tchrs. all e things they've to do and handle, i dun detest teaching as my career. weird but i duno why, i jus long for e satisfaction and happiness tt i can only get from teaching. i may b furiously mad at some students but after they did wat they've done, i'll be gd to them again. even thou there're some classes tt i feel very helpless at, i'll still do all i can to teach them, doing a lot of extra work despite all. now i can easily laugh and smile when my students are ard, esp 1/5 students. they're really my emotion controllers. now, only a few weeks left w them.. i duno how to deal w it when e time comes.. i've given in so much.. i've become so attached.. i duno how to pull myself out.. i duno if i can pull myself out.. i know i've to as i still got to complete uni education.. i reali duno.. i hope i dun cry thou i doubt it.. jus hope my last few wks will b filled w nice and sweet memories ba. :)
10:37 AM
Yours Truly
A little girl
learning to live in a big big world
and trying not to give up things she believes in despite everything
