to all out there, here is a notice that i'll be going away to NUS for a 5D4N camp from 26th to 30th June thus wont be blogging or replying tags. can still sms me if got anything that you all want to tell me, especially my students. do keep me updated about what is happening in school ok? i shall enjoy myself and have fun for the next 5 days then come back and do a superb long entry!!! hahaha, cya all then~ :) to those going school tomorrow, may you all enjoy school! have fun and take care! :D

Tomorrow… tomorrow school reopens… my students will start school… they will be having new Chinese teachers… they will be having better and more experienced teachers teaching them Chinese… despite telling myself umpteen times to let go… that my life as a relief teacher has come to an end and I should gladly move on… I could not help but feel sad and terrible… I guess it is happening once more ya? You’ve given in so much for so long and now suddenly you’re required to let it go once and for all… it will be difficult… it has always been difficult and tough for me… I need time… I need to convince myself a lot… I need ample self-talk… I know that I can do it in the end… because I’ve already done so for a few times in the past successfully! Hahaha… it hurts even more because I know very well that as time passes some students will not be able to remember that such a teacher (Ms. Tan) exists… even if they do remember… the memory will be vague… haha… I’ve been a student before… I’ve had relief teachers before… I know exactly how it is like… I know it is inevitable… I know I should learn to accept the fact… but still it will be hard… I will be able to do it… I just need time that is all…

Just came home from a friend’s house… been there for the almost the whole day since three plus in the afternoon to ten plus at night! Haha… seven hours straight at her house, that is a record I think, never stayed at any friend’s house as yet for that long before. Jen Yuh, aren’t you honored? ;) She is my secondary school friend, one who is always there to hear me complain about school, about CCA, about everything during recess-time. Thinking back to those times, I really cannot help but miss it terribly… So she went to New Zealand to study as it is better for her and finally after two long years, she is back in Singapore for a mere two weeks (winter break) to catch up with friends and people.

Time really flies, it just seemed like it was yesterday since we sent her off to New Zealand and two years have already passed!!! Oh man, I cannot really believe that but it is the fact. At her house, due to the fact that she has to play host to many other people also, we didn’t manage to really talk heart-to-heart but we still did talk a bit. It felt like the same old days back in Anderson Secondary School canteen during recess-time, really. Even though a lot of the times I was just entertaining both myself and her sister by playing the silly game “I put _____ in your mouth” and laughing along like mad with her sister. Kids are really very easy to coax and deal with, especially girls. Haha, her sister is still like what she is two years ago, so cute and cheerful and bubbly! Haha, if I were to ever have a sister, hope it will be like her ba. :P After taking pictures and catching up with all the people who were present, it was time for us to leave. We sealed our promise of seeing each other “soon” with a big hug and departed… I just hope that the next time we meet won’t be so rushed and we can really chit-chat and do those girl’s talk. Haha, wish her all the best for all her future endeavors and that everything goes well and smooth for her ba! Sleep time~

 

 

 

Haha, was too tired yesterday so never blogged about the 1/5 outing I had with at east coast park. Hmmm… how shall I put it lehz? In terms of attendance, I have to say that it was real real real pathetic! Oh man, I feel so apologetic towards Jingyi aka Regina Hong, Joann and Jiehui aka Angie… I think they spent a lot of their holiday times calling their own classmates up to confirm this confirm that la… then in the end it turned out that only 10 out of 40 of 1/5-ians actually turned up for it… I am so so so sorry!!! Sorry sorry sorry!!! haiz… I must admit, I was devastatingly disappointed with the number of people who actually bothered to turn up. I mean, it is normal for me to feel that way isn’t it? It is not my class outing, I am just doing the class a favor and it had to turn out that way?! I mean, come on, so many people put in so much effort and then those that need not sweat much to go could not even turn up? Argh… never mind… I guess I am speaking from an organiser’s point of view? I guess most organizers of most outings will feel this way most of the time? From the few outings that I tried to organize, not once have been successful in terms of the attendance… lohz… anyway, to the 10 who actually turned up… shall name them to show my appreciation to them for turning up which prevented the outing from becoming a total flop. Everyone get ready to clap! *drum roll* They are: Aswini, Daxaiine, YongXiang, AikMeng, Kelicia, ReginaChoy, Joann, Stephanie, Geraldine & Angie!!! Lame, I know. -_- cannot help it, know?

Ok, guess I had complained more than enough about the turnout rate la. Other than the poor attendance, I have to say that the rest of the outing is damn cool! So fun! At least I enjoyed myself, muahaha. Hope the rest did too wo~ though I must say that I did not achieve my objective of the outing the least, which is to build the class spirit of the class. Firstly, the number of people who turned up so little, where got class spirit bonding? Secondly, haiz, I don’t want to talk about it… guess those guilty of it and those who were there will know ya? Haiz… never mind. Back to the fun part~ wahahaha. To those who never come, you all missed my treat!!! Haha, I was intending to treat the students to pizza and even planned all the food to order le la(withdrawn $250 from back account earlier). But in the end very few turned up so I have to rack brain again for food to order loh. However, the pizza was very nice!!! So so so delicious neh! Oishi Pizza rocks~!!! Especially washabi seafood and chicken ham flavour!!! So so so good to eat! And the side dishes were delicious tooo~~~ We cycled, played captain’s ball, played card games, played Frisbee and also swam!!! Haha, there are just so much to say that I don’t know where to start!!! Haha, guess I will leave it to the others who went to talk about the activities. ;) I shall talk about the part I enjoyed myself most, being in the sea!!! Oh man, that half an hour was heavenly!!! Soaking yourself in the seawater and moving together with the waves was way too comfortable and shiok!!! It was real fun as the 4 of us in water(me, Geraldine, YongXiang and AikMeng) need to be aware of the big waves such that we don’t get caught unprepared and be drowned in seawater on the face and in the mouth. Hahaha, it happened to all of us eventually but YongXiang got hit worst and twice somemore! Hahaha, I laughed until I almost went out of breath. Seriously saying, it has been a very long time since I laughed so heartedly, thanks to YongXiang for being the “joke”. :P

After which, with Aswini, Daxaiine and Stephanie already gone, the rest of us walked to Mac for dinner where Joann and Angie left soon after finishing their food without saying bye to me. :( anyway, after the dinner, I led the remaining people home. There was this time when we just came out of the east coast park underpass (the only and scary looking one ya?). I was walking ahead of the rest as I was afraid that I would lead them the wrong way. So if I walk ahead, at least I would have time to turn back and find the correct way again ma. Then my very naughty students decided to play a trick on me by suddenly disappearing behind my back by hiding behind a bush nearby. So when I turned back once to check on them I see nobody, no one, just air. To them: Wah lao, you all really very bad la! I have to say I almost freaked out for a moment, I really thought something supernatural just sucked them away from holy earth to somewhere I would not know or find. Thank goodness rationality came back to me and I decided to turn the tables on them by turning and walking on because I know they will come out of their hiding soon and end this trick on their poor teacher. Well, they came out and we continued our trip home to bedok interchange then via MRT stations. End of my account, very lazy to type liao actually, heez. Need to sleep~ :)

Now, I have learnt what it means when you feel traumatized. The event that spooked or shocked you so much that even after a period of time passes it still stays vividly in your mind... Playing in slow motion whenever you are not the least prepared for it to do so, catching you by surprise and making you feel even more terrible… The incident that taught me the lesson “How it feels to be traumatized” happened on the day of ROD for Anderson St.John Ambulance Brigade. When the parade had started and all the relevant contingents were already in place, all the cadets in senang diri position waiting for the longest part of the ceremony(senior passing down to junior) to end, it happened. I cannot believe how clearly I actually am able to recall what happened on that day… I was helping my dear juniors to take photos of the whole process for memorial purposes when I happen to see one secondary one cadet, Yee Keat. I thought he was going to squat down as that was what they were told to do when they were not feeling well during the parade. Thus with my eyes on him, I quickly walked towards him thinking of helping him out of the squad to take a rest under the shade away from the hot sun. But it did not turn out the way I thought, instead of squatting down all the way, he fell straight on his face onto the floor with a loud “thump”… I remembered myself cursing “shit!” under my breath as I broke into a run towards him… I will never ever forget the look on his face when me and my “son” Le Jun turned him over… My heart skipped a beat when I saw him… I have to admit I was very afraid… I was afraid that something serious has happened to him… I was constantly blaming myself for not running straight to him when I detected that he was not feeling well… I was very shaken… I was amazed at myself that I did not break down at that point of time… That guy is ok now, after a few stitches on his lower chin where there was a deep gash from the fall. I guess I was not the only one traumatized by his fall… Just hope that I would not have to face any such incidents ever again… Even if history was to repeat itself, at least by then I would have the experience and knowledge of how to handle already so it would not be that bad… So if I were to say I am suffering from nightmares, you all will know what I dreamt of… I am just glad everything’s ok now…

I just came back from Anderson St.John Ambulance Brigade Camp yesterday. I must say I really enjoyed myself a lot and never once regretted going back to help out as a teacer-in-charge. It is different when you attend the camp as a student, whether cadet or senior, and as a teacher-in-charge. I was feeling quite awkward and out of place initially as I do not really know the juniors or cadets, other than some of the secondary one students who were my students. Other than them, I sincerely do not know who are the others, which includes the secondary three students who are the organisers of the camp. I am very sorry for this but I made an effort and eventually managed to get most of the names of the secondary three students. I also am not used to having students greet me as Mdm.. I will feel quite paiseh having make them drop everything they have on the floor and get into sedia position just for the sake of greeting me. Thus, I will try my best to avoid bumping into them whenever possible. I know they greeted me as a form of respect or maybe just because they were forced to do so. I guess if I really go back to Anderson Secondary School in the future to be a full-time teacher, and becomes the teacher-in-charge of St.John officially, I will learn to accept the greetings in grace de. This is again something I must learn when I do become a teacher. :)

During this camp, I once again experienced the great and wonderful feeling of being appreciated for things that you do voluntarily without hoping for any payback. During the social night, I got a pleasant surprise when Mr.Yong presented a box of chocolate and card to me in front of all the cadets. I was totally taken aback as I never expected that they will treat my departure seriously, I mean I thought I will just leave St.John quietly without any ceremony whatsoever. Haha, and to think I even accompanied Mr.Yong to buy the chocolates as he said he do not know how to choose. He bought 3 boxes, 2 boxes for the security guards and the last one for me. I was very touched but thankfully I did not cry.. I guess I have already come to terms with having to leave Anderson Secondary School le ba.. I mean it is inevitable that I will feel sad and may even tear a bit when I think of it in the future. But I guess they will be safely kept in a corner of my heart to be treasured, all this memories and experiences. Then after the whole thing when me, Mr.Yong and Ms.Zaleha went back to staffroom, I was given another gift which is a cute garfield soft toy from the teachers!!! haha, the toy is so cute! cuddly too~ haha, the teachers were afraid that I will lose whatever image the students have of me if they gave me the soft toy in front of the cadets as my reaction will be to shriek "SO CUTE!!!", which is so not teacher like lohz, haha. I must say, when I volunteered to go back St.John and help during my relief teaching period is because St.John has given me lots of memories, has taught me lots of things and has blessed me with a lot of wonderful people(seniors and juniors and him)I feel a lot for it. I just wanted to do my part and contribute back after taking so much from the CCA, even if whatever I do will not be appreciated I am also okay with it, I have learnt to deal with it. But in the end it did not turn out that sad as my efforts and contributions were deeply appreciated. :)

At the end of the camp, I asked time from the cadets for a farewell speech as I feel that I should say something after being through so many different types of identity.. from a cadet to a sergeant to an ex-NCO and finally to a teacher-in-charge.. I have been though so much.. seen so much.. I was hoping that the cadets will be able to leave this camp with some of the things I have said. And seriously, hopefully they will be able to get the message and strive to become better and make St.John a much better CCA! I have to agree that the kids nowadays are no longer what we were in the past, thus some basic rules of being in uniform group may not go down well with them like the No ABCD rule. No Argueing, No Bargaining, No Complaining and No Dilly-Dallying. This may sound ridiculous to the kids nowadays, having been able to get what they want and do what they want. Now you want them to obey some people without any doubt or hesitation is almost impossible, they will just show the bu shuang look on their face openly in front of you. Seriously, I do not give a damn on how kids behave or are nowadays, so long as you are in uniform groups, whether willingly or forced to be in, you have to obey. Some may say that other UG are not doing so which I also do not care as you all are in St.John, not NP or NC or Girl Guides. Trust me, you will learn and gain optimum-ly when you have experienced both happiness and sadness, fun and suffering in the CCA.

Also, the "One for all, all for one" team spirit. This may again sound ridiculous as people are punished together whether or not they do wrong as some people of their group did wrong. The cadets now may feel wronged, feel damn unhappy, but this is part of bonding the whole group of you all together. Unless you all went through torture together, if not the bonding in the group wont be strong. I have been through, it is true so if you want to gain the most out of St.John, be prepared to give in all you have and listen to whatever is being said with a good attitude. Once again, attitude is the key~ haiz.. lastly, ASJAB rawks on man~!!! :D I will be back de~!

I must say I am pissed once again. Finally manage to come back anderson after being busy with a lot of different sorts of outings for the past one and half week. I am back finally because there is the St.John Ambulance Brigade camp which I will be helping out as a teacher-in-charge.. the final time when I can still be a teacher as I will officially really end my teaching life upon returning my access card to Major Chong of Anderson Secondary School.. Thus, I happily went to my pigeon hole to collect all the late student's work, thinking naively that every single one of my student have handed up all their late homework, assuming that they actually have a conscience but how wrong can I get? There are some who PROMISED to pass up to my pigeon hole but in the end never do so. argh.. feel like strangling them! please, if you cannot do it then don't make any promise to me! I don't need any empty promises! They don't make me feel any better but only worse and a can say a trillion times worse! Why am I so stupid and bloody patient to those students who do nothing but make me feel worse and drive me to the brink of crying only? What is wrong with them? Since you promised then do so! You don't reflect well of your own upbringing and character when you make empty promises! Not everyone can let bygones by bygones by trusting you again and again one time after another of liars! I hate myself for this, it is always such scenarios that make me feel so lousy as a teacher.. make me feel that I've failed terribly.. no one can understand how it feels..unless you yourself become a teacher and teach with passion on a subject you love! the pain is double.. There was even this one student which really pissed me off with his stupid attitude. And to think I even risked becoming enemies with the notorious normal academic and normal technical students just to help him look for his handphone! And now this! Repaying my kindness and sacrifice for him with what?! en1 jiang1 chou2 bao4! Giving me attitude! Oh please, is it any business of mine that you suddenly cannot pass up? Is it any business of mine that you won't be coming to school anymore? PLEASE, since you promised to pass up by when then you jolly well do so! So what if your chinese standard is one of the few good ones in your class? To think I even wanted to help you go further and study higher chinese! I must be mad! I've said more than once to you students that your attitude matters much much more than your academic results! If you have sucky attitude then your good results are NOTHING! NOTHING AT ALL! Although I only mean all those harsh words to a particular students, I hope other students reading my blog also learn this lesson ok? Living in a society, your attitude matters a lot, believe it or not. I'm done with what I want to say.. argh..

Attn all 1/5 students!!! for the outing on 19th june monday, we'll meet at bedok interchange at e place where bus 196 is at 10am sharp! do not be late and rmb to bring all tt u nd for a fun day at e beach! help to spread e word ard~!!! btw.. ms hu wont be coming liaoz.. haiz.. nvm.. lastly pray tt it doesn't rain on tt day at all~!!! may we have a great day on monday!!! looking so much forward to it, let's all make it one successful outing ya? cya all on monday! :)

woa, today really very very very tired out after one whole day of shopping! actually, it is my 1st time going out shopping on my own for my own things using my own money!!! oh my god! i am just totally new to this part of my life that i will have to get used to in the future. to be frank, i am not exactly comfortable with it as i had bought a lot of things and spent a lot of money!!! $150 spent in a day! oh man, so so so scary now that i think back. i guess i am too used to wearing clothes that people give and wearing clothes that my mum buys for me.. that is why when i now go out on my own with pork to shop, i am totally lost and felt really helpless.. argh.. i am so useless.. but i am just so afraid to spend money on myself other than accessories.. clothes.. bags.. shoes.. i would never have thought that i will one day have to buy those things on my own.. i would never have thought that i will one day go shop and buy things in town.. i am just so intimidated although there is no reason to.. haiz.. i guess like what he said, i will start to learn how to live this part of my life and learn how to be a consumer as i am now no longer a kid.. haiz.. i guess growing up is really not easy.. i need to learn a lot of stuff.. i need to learn to shop.. to cook.. to be independent.. to lead.. to live.. to have fun.. this is a new phase thus i feel rather uneasy still.. hope i get use to it soon.. haha, may i grow up fast~ :)

haha, watched x-men 3 just ytd w him at j8. actuali, we met for lunch 1st b4 watching e movie tgt. we settled to meet at 1pm on tt day but din mention where to meet so i jus took hint frm his earlier sms & decided to wait at e bus-stop for him. he was late so i waited for him, reading my novel to pass time. haha, finally waited for his arrival and then he almost walked rite past me as he din see me seated at e bus stop lohz, blur him. so, both of us decided to buy e movie tix 1st b4 settling to eat at swensons. it was not long after we realised that we were late for e movie as we'd been talking and i'd been eating too slowly liaoz. thus we rushed up to e top story into e theatre where we waited for another ten minutes b4 e move actuali started, diaognz. -_-" i've to say, e movie rox man!!! so so so cool!!! so so so exciting!!! totally worth e price!!! all e special effects simply blew me off!!! wow! those who hadn't watch it shld go and catch it b4 it stops screening man! after e movie, both of us felt tt it was still early so we walked bout in e shopping centre and spent e longest time in e popular bookshop. :p wanted to end e outing w a neoprint taking session using e money he owed me previously for his medicine, so tt i can hav some form of memorial gift of tt day but he said he wasn't dressed well enough so nvr take lohz. but in e end i did hav a gift to commemorate this day as he used e money to buy a watch for me~!!! haha, even thou he din reali buy for me using his own money, i was so so so happy still! haha, smiled e whole journey on mrt home. haha, there must have been some ppl on e train who'd hav thought i'm crazy la. haha, e outing was wonderful! what my mum said was correct, jus be natural and things will turn out ok de. ;)

actuali, i got sth very frustrating to blog bout today but e events tt took place after i came home made my day!!! hahaha.. so so so so so happy now!!! feeling so so so so so high!!! it has been such a long long long time since i last felt so happy and excited! haha, partly bcos of him also lahz, heez. haha, i finally received my package from MOE saying that i'd been offered e teaching award for chinese!!! oh man! my dream come true!!! ah!!! so so so happy! this package sealed my fate of being a chinese teacher after completing my university education~! althou i do feel some uncertainty and discomfort.. at least i'm relieved tt my university education financial crisis is solved by this teaching award! phew! i can concentrate on saving money for e other expenses tt MOE doesnt cover lk hostel fees. actuali i was still worrying and wondering if i shld accept e teaching award as i recalled what some of e teachers taught me and told me.. but when my mum scold me for worrying for nth.. i came to my conclusion: i want to teach so i shall take up e teaching award and b e chi tchr tt i aspire to be~! i shant think too much anymore le~ :) thus, i am happy~!!! :D

when i saw e package, i wanted to share my happiness with him dearly so i sms-ed to test e waters and got e green light!!! hahaha, i'm gg to sound qt mushy once again but i cant help it as i feel so so so blissful, lk i'm floating in 7th heaven already~!!! haha, i called him and chatted for a whole 12min and 2sec despite me promising him tt i'll keep it short. haha, it always feel so good chatting and after chatting with him!!! haha, oh man, feel so so so happy!!! haha, jus can't seem to wipe e smile off my face, heez. :p haha, then he even agreed to accept my treat this sunday as a form of celebration for my success in achievin the teaching award!!! haha, oh man, i hope i'll have a sweet dream tonight. even if i dun, i'll be able to sleep soundly and happily de~ hahaha, yea yea yea~ looking forward to sunday!!! ;)

haiz.. sometimes i blogged with a lot of vengence.. i dun hav to worry bout it in e past.. but now.. i've got students visiting my blog.. i've to blog w care.. i've to think thru wat i blog.. i've to hide some truths and substitute it w fictional incidents.. this is pathetic.. but i do understand tt i've to be responsible for what i blogged too.. but it is jus too tiresome to blog e way i'm supposed to be.. i hate self-censorship.. but i'm not one person living in this world alone.. i'm living amidst a lot of ppl.. living on is a challenge to be optimistic.. but to be pessimistic, living on is a chore.. a torture.. i'll try and live everyday happily de, because that was what he wanted me to be, and because that shld be e way.. lastly, because those ppl that normally make me sad or angry or hopeless cant be bothered even if i am to suddenly die and disappear from this world. so, why shld i care bout them? but e sad thing is.. i do care bout them.. once again, i am pathetic.. haiz.. dun bother bout me.. jus suddenly finding myself dropping into e abyss of depression again.. i'll b fine after a while.. mayb fallin sick is making me lose my mind and sanity.. i am gg mad.. hahaha.. life ROX~!

suddenly thought of this question.. because of incidents that happened in e past week.. do ppl laugh only because they're happy? or rather, is happiness only expressed in laughter? ok, for me, i feel that is not e case ba. i laugh when i feel so so so angry and frustrated.. i laugh when i feel so so so helpless and stupid.. i laugh when i duno how i shld deal w a scenario.. i can also laugh for no reason..

1st scenario~
one fine morning i decided to finally face e music and look at my student's work. to my horror a lot of students from one class nvr hand up and they cldn't even b bothered to tell me or look for me to give an explanation! i was so so so so so pissed, thus i have no other choice but to go back to sch on tt day so as to call them up one by one to plead w them to pass up their seriously overdued work to me so tt i can leave my job in peace. actually i can only have myself to blame la, sometimes feel that i'm too good to students, too understanding to them, forgiving them again and again in e hope that they'll be beta. FAT HOPE! i can say i really regret being e way i was w them, in e end suffer on my own while they dun even care! i was really pissed lohz, i stomped my way from home all e way to sch! really fuming liaoz, feel lk grabbing one of those stupid idiotic students and beating e life out of them or slapping them until their face becomes distorted! i've nvr felt so angry and pissed before la, can feel my whole body heating up! den when i reach sch, it so happens tt e class got lessons on tt day so i can hav face-to-face confrontation w those student! i really really feel lk screamin into their face lk a madwoman at tt time! really really feel lk doing tt. but instead of doing tt, i laughed and laughed, smiled and smiled. why? because i cant! i cldn't bring myself to scold them lk hell! one of my student even said, "tchr, thot u say u angry y still smile de?" argh...!!! i was so so so so so angry w myself tt when i left them, i punched hard at a wall three times and slapped hard at e railing another three times until my whole hand turn red. argh... argh.. argh. i laughed, because there's no other alternative for me other than laughin about it. I AM PATHETIC.

2nd scenario~
I was talking about politics in e adult world with some friends.. I was reminded of e ugly incident tt happened to me when i jus entered e working world.. it has left a real deep impact on me.. it has made me grown up so much.. seen so clearly how e world out there actually is.. shall blog bout it in detail l8r. btw, we were talking bout it and describing it as ppl stabbing you behind ur back and stepping on ur foot, literally also. they were saying how some ppl not jus stab u once but stab again and again, maybe even stab liaoz turn one whole round in e wound even.. haha.. they even said there is nth they can do other than standing there and being stabbed den try and let e wound heal. but not after long e person comes along again and happily gives u a few stabs once more.. it was even said tt we are lk ikan belis and those ppl are lk sharks, they can swallow us and we'll be totally gone~! no bones or eyes left behind even.. haha.. it was funny e way we talked bout it.. but behind e laughter? e pain.. e heart-throbbing pain.. behind this cruel truth of living and surviving in e real world.. it is too close to e heart.. too real.. too much to bear.. there's again no other alternative but to make fun of it and laugh at it, laugh at ourselves.. hahaha.. i laugh.. yes.. because I AM PATHETIC.. once again.. hahaha..

suddenly recalled that i want to do an entry on this.. class spirit.. now i can understand why some people are so paranoid about formation of cliques in class.. it really kills e class spirit.. i've seen it myself.. i'm a person who is not good at talking face-to-face.. this is actually sth for my angel class.. i want to tell them but i duno how to put it across to them face-to-face so i shall talk bout it here and hope they understand my intentions.. i mean, it is inevitable that you hang out with some people more as you all have more in common. that is not wrong, it is perfectly normal. but what is not good is when you all declare urself as a grp to e whole class and even give urself a name, blog and other thingies.. i dun mean to hurt u all in anyway, u all are all gd, nice and sweet students.. i jus want to say that i as ur teacher, hopes to see e whole class progress tgt and be a great class tt everyone is proud and happy to be in! class spirit is really important! i just hope u all can understand what i'm trying to say.. these are all words from e bottom of my heart and i appeal to u all to stay and be as a class as i see e potential of ur class in being a superb one~! that is all i want to say.. i hope to see tt.. hope tt u all can help me accomplish this wish? hope no one is offended cos i dun mean it tt way e least.. think it over.. chew on it.. food for thought..

Instructions: Name 20 people you can think of at the top of your head. dont read the questions before you write, and tag 10 pple to do this survey.
1. Yun Li
2. Liting
3. Hailing
4. Hoo Xin Yu
5. Wan Xin
6. Jaspar
7. Boon Xin
8. Pia Goi
9. Shi Yun
10. Pei Joo
11. Jen Yuh
12. Wei Cong
13. Zhaoyang
14. John Ong
15. Chia Hong
16. Shell
17. Gg
18. XXX
19. Ningfei
20. James

how did u meet 14? (John Ong) sec sch cca mate for 4 yrs and then same class in sec3&4, a good friend who is always there whenever i need his help. haha, used to be a scandalous pair neh~ ;)

what wld u do if u never met 1? (Yun Li) I wld not know wat to do ba.. cos i wld hav lost someone who shares so much w me.. who went thru so much w me.. she let me see e light of true friendship. :) 君子之交淡如水~

what wld u do if 20 n 9 dated? (james & shiyun) hahaha.. 姐弟恋哦！muppet will be so jealous! haha, shiyun still single rite? but hoh, they dun even know each other la, and i personally think its not possible la, heez. :p

did u ever like 19? (Ningfei) haha.. a short period of time long long ago la, but now like him as a younger brother as he's really not my type and he's younger den me lohz. but i've to say he's lk one eligible bachelor in hwachong neh~ haha, but duno if he still holds tt fortunate gal to his heart lk in e past wo~

wld 6 n 17 make a gd couple? (Jaspar & Georgia) Oh my god!!! hahahaha.. i'll laugh and laugh and laugh until i go IMH de. haha, even thou e both of them know each other as snr jnr, impossible la! hahaha, anw Gg has got someone she likes liaoz lohz. even if jaspar want also no hope la, hahaha.

describe 3. (Powrabbit) A good friend who stands by no matter what happens. Someone who is very clever and witty, can always blog and tag with lotsa lotsa humour iseneh~ ;) *sticks tongue out and slurps seductively* ;)

do u tnk 8 is attractive? (Pia Goi) haha, she is attractive in her own way, i've already known qt a few guys who lk her lohz. lk those gals from e past, ever so demure, sweet and soft de, tt guys will flock to protect her one. but too bad she's happily and blissfully attached liaoz.

tell me smth abt 7. (Molly) He has a pair of very nicely-shaped and toned legs which many people agrees and which many gals will die to have i'm sure. ;)

do u know any of 12's family? (Wei Cong) Hmmm... actually i'm not very sure.. have talked bout it before but forgot liaoz, my memory very lousy de. :p

what is 8's favourite? (Pia Goi) Spending time with her future husband-to-be? ;) she used to love dancing, i'm not sure now thou, been a long time since we have a nice and long girl's talk.

what wld u do if 11 confesses tt he/she likes u? (Jen Yuh) I'll confess tt i like her very very much too!!! haha, i simply adore her!!! miss all e times when we go canteen eat tgt! coming back spore soon!!! yea man! wahahaha.

what language does 15 speak? (Chia Hong) haha, normal language lohz. chinese and english la, if not what?

who is 9 going out with? (Shi Yun) Hmmm.. if i'm not wrong, she's still single rite?

how old is 16 now? (Shell) 18. haha, one yr my jnr neh~ ;) one of my great great great jnrs to ever have! love ya! and also all my other zhus~ ;)

when was the last time u talked to 13? (Zhaoyang) the day when we have our sec4 class gathering~ :)

who's 2's favourite band/singer? (Pork) haha, currently shld be rain yang cheng ling ba, heez. wang lee hom also! her husband~ ;)

wld u date 4? (Hoohoo) haha, of cos, e 2 xinyus must b tgt de iseneh~ ;)

wld u date 7? (Molly) haha, he is a good guy who can be a good lover but not my type as i already have someone in my heart neh~~~ :p

is 15 single? (Chia Hong) Erps.. heez, hopefully ba.. as of what i know shld b ba, heez. if not den too bad lohz.. :p

what's 10's last name? (Pei Joo) Lim. haha, a very nice and wonderful and sweet friend to have!!! always w sweet sms-es!!! :)

wld u ever be in a serious relationship with 11? (Jen Yuh) Serious Friendship. Yes, of cos.

what sch does 3 go to? (pow) Bukit Panjang then Hwa Chong lohz.

where does 6 live? (Jaspar) Haha, Lengkong Tiga neh. dun even know Lengkong Lima existed somewhere near, hahaha, so funny.

what's ur favourite thing abt 5? (Wan Xin) My fellow hostel mate!!! She is a great friend, seriously, e best u can ever get thou at times she's so endothermic u nd to b careful ard her~ ;)

Next 10: Shell, Xiao xuan xuan, Mini beng, Ame, Ji Ching, Boonie, Sars Kor, Xavier, Alice, Fengyi

Keep yourself free on the 19th of june(monday) and help to spread e word ard to other 1/5-ians ya? there shall be a 1/5 class outing at east coast park, we shall go pot-luck so just bring whatever u all want to eat ok? of cos, there'll be food and drinks supplied la. but it'll be much beta and more fun if all of u can bring more food for more variety ya? there'll be activites planned but if u all want to ride bikes, skate or swim then bring the necessary things(i.e clothes, bathing stuff, balls, hats, games, cards, sunglasses, suntan lotions :p etc) along la. :) lets pray hard tt e day will be sunny and windy!!! for more details, i'll keep you all informed again on my blog or thru some of ur classmates. rmb, it is a 1/5 class outing. for those who got cca or whatever keep me informed ok? thx lots le. cya all dere den!!! :)we'll have a day of fun!!!

This coming wednesday, 7/6, I will be going to Woodlands National Library!!! haha, go there and read books so those interested to join me for a morning of reading CHINESE books meet at 9.50am outside the gate ya? must read chinese books ok? for a morning only i'm sure u all can do it de. also can borrow some books home to read oh! haha, hope to see a lot of u wo~ those who miss me a lot take this chance to see me again ba~ ;)

ok, this is very lag but because my comp is spoilt, and i dun have e time prev to go someone else hse to use comp. haha, now at pork's hse using comp lohz, haha, so shuang!!! after such a long time, i finally get to chat on msn le!!! wah, tt feeling is jus so shiok lohz! haha, paiseh, a bit over liaoz but dun care le la, haha. :p shall talk bout another one of my outing with my students.

actually this one cannot exactly be counted as an outing as it was really very rushed and we didn't manage to do anything else other than take neoprint and eat standing up. before going to J8 to meet e students, poor me was in anderson sec on my table frantically trying to pack all my things & write finish all my last words to e next tchr. why was i in such a rush? it was because i originally have to return my access card to e sch die die on tt day de, which means tt after returning, i cant enter e staffroom on my own thus i've to finish all tt i have to do by tt day. and it always happens tt when u're busy doing sth time passes especially fast so before i know it, i've to go J8 meet my students le. with no other alternatives left, i decide to leave all my things 1st and come back after e outing to complete whatever i have to as e students can't wait.. make me rush there all e way frm anderson lohz. but it turns out that i was granted e wish to hold on to my access card longer(thx to st.john camp!) thus e day of rushing was actually qt stupid but no one aniticipated such happenings ma. lohz.

so i rush rush rush all e way to J8 & found my students w eyes glued to e tv outside a video rental shop, haha, they must have waited until sian diao liaoz. who ask them to meet so early worz, den another relief tchr in e end decide not to go so only me w them. upon my arrival, they pulled me straight to e neoprint shop to take neoprint. i've to say i feel weird cos i duno wat i shld or shld not do.. hmmm.. paiseh la, i'm still a new hand at teaching and still learning how to go out w students ma.. i dun exactly know how i shld behave so i was actually having qt an uncomfortable time in e neoprint machine.. feel so awkward lohz.. haha, nvm la, they only nd my face there only so it other things doesn't matter~ den after which they start to chiong e decor part which is e time when i stone.. haha.. i got students who always say：“老师！为什么你每次这么lonely的？” when they saw me by myself.. which is qt often.. i also duno la.. sometimes jus find tt i'm too tired to go find ppl to talk to or engage myself in activities.. a lot of times i jus lk to be alone.. i'll jus walk away silently suddenly.. i also duno why.. haha.. guess that's me ba.. so dun be surprised if i did tt on some outings cos tt's jus me being me~ haha. :p den after e 1st time, e gals requested for another round! i tried to object as it is really expensive!!! $10 every time lehz! so so so expensive!!! even though they paid for me.. i jus feel tt they shldn't spend money tt way la.. my heart pain pain lohz. but e pics were all very nice this i hav to admit, haha, nex time do so activites tt doesnt cost so much la hoh? geez. ;)

after e neoprint taking, due to my rumbling stomach, we went in search of food. one of my students, xiuhui, wanted to treat me but i jus cldn't accept as they've spent a lot liaoz. so in e end i bought some food and also some for them la, which only yongxiang ate, e rest i've to finish myself, sob sob. actually i'm not as much a miser as i sound la, jus tt i feel tt money must be spent wisely lohz. lk i can be very stingy while eating or buying things for myself but when it comes to buying things for other ppl tt have an important place in my heart or treating ppl tt hav been real great to me, i can easily take e money out de. haha, so when i feel tt it shld b e way den i'll spend money lk running water! haha, jus joking jus joking. :p after eating, it is time to depart.. me, yongxiang and tenghong went to take mrt. haha, my dear student tenghong doesnt know how to go home from J8 so to be safe he followed us to AMK to take familiar bus at e normal bus stop. haha, it is really funny but i'm sure there're many out there who is lk him ba, not e least street-wise.. it is possible as a lot of ppl got parents with cars to ferry them where they want to go thus they're totally foreign to public transport. but i think e scenario will change as they go out more often w friends and learn to go back home from e various fav hangouts of teenagers. ;) from AMK walk a bit w yongxiang and chatted qt a bit b4 his bus came and i've to go back sch once more. tt spells e end of 1/5 outing, haha. had fun!!! :)