i have decided.. decided that i'll not have any hope of starting any r/s with him.. it has been so long.. giving it up will be difficult but i'll do it.. i wont confess because i believe it wont do either party good.. i know deep down in my heart he just isn't interested.. i'm just deceiving myself if i dont face up to it and give up.. i'll suffer more in e future if i dun learn to let go now.. i'll try and adjust my feelings for him.. it's hard but i think it'll be good for me in e long run.. i'll try and treat him just like any guy friend.. i know it is impossible cos he can never be just like any guy friend.. i'll still love him secretly... silently... but i wont have any hope of a r/s w him.. so to all out there who cares how i feel.. stop teasing me anymore bout him le ok...? i'll be happy if i dun get reminded of it.. let me be happy living and going through uni life.. thanks lots le...