Wednesday, August 16, 2006
hey hey hey~!!! updates finally after such a long long long time!!! now I am currently sitting on the floor of perk point in NUS central library! hahaha, super comfortable, got air-conditioning and then super nice cushion sofa. I am going to spend a lot of my future 3/4 years in NUS at the central library mugging!!! it is really a very conducive environment for studying, reading and researching! Okok, enough about praising my new school and back to blogging~! ;)
hmmm.. actually it feels quite weird to be back in school again after such a long time, I guess a lot of other people will also agree with me. The girls after working for about half a year and the boys after being in army for two years, it certainly feels uneasy to be back in school to study. For me after doing relief teaching at Anderson Secondary School, I was already very much mentally prepared to go directly to NIE to complete my degree in teaching and just continue teaching. BUT, I know it is definitely not a very sensible or rationale move given due considerations to my future career opportunities and stuff, thus I am back in school to gain more knowledge! Hahaha. One thing I have to say, studying at the university level is definitely very much different from any other levels of education I have been through personally. The very obvious difference is that people no longer wears school uniform to go to school! And then the second thing is that you can be classmates with people who are much much much older than you! Also, in university, your previous education background doesn’t matter anymore. Whether you are from junior college or polytechnic, whether you have been a high scorer or a repeat student once/twice, it feels the same with everyone. It makes me really wonder why in the past we used to take all these things so seriously when in university it no longer matters, I give up thinking as I cannot find any reasonable explanation.
Finally a university student myself.. the feeling is rather surreal.. it is rather unbelievable even! I mean in the past I used to think that university is like a place I will never be able to even step into. But now I am actually studying in university!!! Oh man, it really feels like I am in a dream! Initially I felt very emotional as I thought of how my ah gong used to ask me to study hard so that can get into university and then in future got job so that wont suffer. I think my ah gong will be really proud of me if he can see how and where I am now. J being in university is going to be a big challenge, with the people you need to face everyday, the modules you have to take, the decisions and arrangements you have to decide and plan for yourself…etc. I am in a relatively good and high mood now but it certainly wasn’t the case for the last few days as I battle with a lot of issues and thought about a lot of things…but, do not worry for me as I will always be able to sort out my thoughts and self-console myself effectively. I know that the world is never fair, the society is harsh, cruel and practical and that life is never a bed of roses! Hahaha, this is part of growing up~ I don’t want to grow up but it is not within my control so what I can only do is to learn to deal with it. Learn how to grow up without falling down too many times unnecessarily or bumping into too many walls when there is no need to.
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