hahaha, i've got a new handphone thus i am contactable once more!!! to all ppl out there pls do me a favour by sending me all ur numbers again!!! i dowan to lose touch w any of u at all.. really really, just drop me a sms saying who you are can le! thank u very much! i'll def lose some of the numbers inside permanently... haiz... tt's very sad unless my phone is returned which i still believe it will be anyway. i just got myself a new phone to move on cos it's so inconvenient nowadays not to have a phone in sch. both to u and ur friends, so send me send me~! :) everyone take care~ ;)

was through the longest internals ever in my life.. it lasted for 10hrs straight from 7pm all the way til 5am!!! it was also the most exciting for me i guess? running for the 2 posts i have in mind and in the end not getting any of them, losing out by a mere margin.. haha.. to look at it from the good side, it shows that the people in my mc confirms my capabilities! haha.. but in the end got myself a deputy.. ok la, i have to be frank, it doesn't really feel very comforting when you know for yourself a deputy can just be co-opted into mc.. however, i am forcing myself to think away from that as much as i can. i also keep thinking if i didn't even thought of running for hon gen but only focus totally on welfare director, maybe i could have gotten the post i have wanted all along since the start.. haha.. i am crapping nonsense.. talking about things only after they have happened when it no longer does any good liaoz.. haiz.. never mind la. i shall be very very very happy that i got into mc, became confident in myself and got recognition from people around me~! always look on the bright side of life~ focus on my post now! i shan't think of useless stuff liaoz, i must do justice to my voters, seniors, friends and mc members! deputy welfare director, here i come! who knows, it may very well be a blessing in disguise!!! :) i shall fulfil my promise to contribute, learn and serve! your welfare is my warfare!!! :D

have been without handphone for the past 2 days.. it feels weird, especially when you see people taking out their handphone to reply sms-es or talk away happily on the phone with someone. it also makes me feel lost and insecure.. suddenly feel like a piece of log floating about on the river aimlessly whenever in school.. maybe i am missing my handphone badly ba.. i don't know.. i just hope to get everything back.. i have the faith that it will but i don't know if i can stand by my faith for how much longer.. i wonder how many sms/miss calls there are in my phone now.. let the person who's stolen my phone return it to me for the reward i am willing to offer..

intended to blog about something happier and more optimistic but this has to happen to me just yesterday morning! what the.. so here goes: my handphone is stolen so please do not call/sms 97823579 for the time being... haiz... do not ask me what happen... i am already trying very hard to bounce back... easier said than done... i have ample trust in my faith that i will be able to find it back... but i just dont know how much longer it will take... it is so so so lonely to be in university with no handphone... you cannot contact people and people cannot contact you... it doesn't really feel good especially when you need to look for people urgently... all my contacts inside... damn... argh... never mind.. it may just be a blessing in disguise! i must have faith... i need to persevere... i want to talk to someone... but i guess i cannot find anyone... even if people want to talk also cannot because i am not contactable... lonely, feeling so lonely, i am so lonely, all on my own~~~ i am spouting nonsense... i just realise something, i have not really smiled from the bottom of my heart for a very very long time... i can laugh heartily... but that is different from a sincere and comfortable or glad smile... i find myself losing the old me... this is scary... i do not know... i hate myself now... please dont be bothered about my post... just venting frustration as per usual...

Another entry finally after a super long time! Last few weeks have been real busy and hectic… University life is both enjoyable and stressful, thus I guess you have to attain and maintain e delicate balance in order to last through your 4 years without facing any major problems like mental breakdown? Haha, just joking la, but it is not entirely impossible also.

Before I go into my main entry, let me talk about my visit to my alma mater last Wednesday. I went back to Anderson secondary school with three other fellow relief teachers who have now went on to continue further their tertiary education already. Me (studying in NUS FASS), Xiaole (studying in NUS Life Science), Reuben (studying in SMU Social Sciences) and Yunli (going to Peking University) found a common day when we can go back and visit both the teachers and students there after a long time. It was rather hectic as we hopped from one place to another in search of teachers we would like to meet up with and at the same time entertaining students who called / sms-ed us to go look for them. I received my 1st teacher’s day present ever!!! Oh man… I have to say that I was very surprised and touched that the students actually bought something for me! I really did not expect them to do so as after all I no longer teach them. Thanks for all the “happy teacher’s day” well-wishes and sms-es also~!!! I was also able to finally really talk with some of the teachers for the 1st time as my previous visits were rushed and short. It never fails to amaze me at how much you can really gain from just talking to some teachers! They really share with you their experiences and what they think will be good for you to follow without having to commit the same mistakes they did in order to learn the same things. I am just feeling so fortunate to be able to be at the receiving end and learning so much about life that your textbooks can never do. I also want to be such teachers in the future!

After Anderson secondary I went back to Hwa Chong Junior College (I will never admit that I graduated from Hwa Chong Institution!), meeting one of my favourite LEP teacher, Yu Lao Shi. It is quite sad as he will be retiring at the end of this year and it will then be much harder to see him around already… I really admire the way he can have his own style of teaching and stick to it all the way through his education career without being affected by the surrounding environment. He shall be one of my role model also! Hahaha. : P

Back to university topic~! I am currently busy with not only studies but also with campaigning because I will be running for FASS Management committee!!! I want to be the welfare director!!! Your welfare shall be my warfare~!!! ;) Haha, actually the process of running with all the elections and campaigning stuff is fun, it is a totally new experience for me. I shall enjoy this around one week long process fully because I may not even get into the management committee in the end after the external elections. I am not saying that I am not confident with my team / group members; it is just me, having little confidence in myself. Also, you can never be too sure about this type of thing as you never know who your voters are supporting. I just don’t want to have too high and too much of an expectation… I have had unhappy experiences in the past with running and I don’t want history to repeat itself… when you expect too much, the disappointment will be tremendous if you don’t get it in the end… I will just do my best in the campaigning and stuff then leave the rest to fate already… really doesn’t want to think too much about it as yet… shall enjoy myself now that I get this opportunity to be part of this!

Hahaha, it is like the 1st time in 5 years of FASS history that Arts students get to vote for the people they want in the management committee!!! So everyone regardless of whom you support, or even if you don’t know who to vote for, just go and find out then exercise your right!!! My number is 7~!!! Those who don’t know who else to give their votes to beside me, don’t worry because I’m running with 4 other people as a group, do not waste your votes and cast them for my group members~!!! I will be running together with my team RED & BLACK! Here is our website, do go check it out if you are free!