intended to blog about something happier and more optimistic but this has to happen to me just yesterday morning! what the.. so here goes: my handphone is stolen so please do not call/sms 97823579 for the time being... haiz... do not ask me what happen... i am already trying very hard to bounce back... easier said than done... i have ample trust in my faith that i will be able to find it back... but i just dont know how much longer it will take... it is so so so lonely to be in university with no handphone... you cannot contact people and people cannot contact you... it doesn't really feel good especially when you need to look for people urgently... all my contacts inside... damn... argh... never mind.. it may just be a blessing in disguise! i must have faith... i need to persevere... i want to talk to someone... but i guess i cannot find anyone... even if people want to talk also cannot because i am not contactable... lonely, feeling so lonely, i am so lonely, all on my own~~~ i am spouting nonsense... i just realise something, i have not really smiled from the bottom of my heart for a very very long time... i can laugh heartily... but that is different from a sincere and comfortable or glad smile... i find myself losing the old me... this is scary... i do not know... i hate myself now... please dont be bothered about my post... just venting frustration as per usual...