I must apologise for not keeping to my initial promise of keeping this blog a happy one.. too much things happen and i guess i was not as prepared to accept them as i thought myself to be.. i have too much flaws and shortcomings.. after so many years i have still yet to learn to handle them effectively.. i am so not good.. i hope not to break this broken promise once more because i have sorted out my thoughts, i think i have at least. i shall learn to live life the way it force me to be, i shall set my priorities right because nobody will pity me if i dont and suffer terrible failure as a results, i shall toughen myself up because living on is harsh.. to my students, uni life is not as bad as it may sound, i am just writing what i feel which most of the time may not be true ok? but still, enjoy the life you all still have now as teenagers not young adults, there is a big difference.

i shall also not be hopeful anymore.. feel like giving myself tight slaps to wake myself up from all the wishful thinkings.. things won't change, if it'll it would have.. why can't i understand this point? why do i have to allow myself to be affected and disappointed once more? i deserve the suffering i am undergoing now.. i shall change my mindset completely.. i shall do what i wanted when i decided to cut my hair real short.. i can do it.. i must.. let this be the last pessismistic entry i have!!! xin yu will evolve.. for the better or for the worse who knows.. to those reading my blog, just let me have the freedom to indulge in depression and forget whatever i have written after it is being read ya? i hope not to see my words on my blog used on me.. i just need to let some air out..

anyway, everyone take care ya? the haze is quite detrimental to health actually, don't fall sick if possible. all e best in wateva u all are doing, esp my dearest juniors, jia you for A's~! i will always b mentally supporting u all.. mug on.. (: