went back hwa chong ytd for e annual MAF celebration!!! haha, it was fun when we all let our hair down and talk and sing and dance once more. it is a great feeling to get together, always never fail to warm my heart, always never fail to make me feel motivated and hopeful towards life once more. i love my jc days, even though a-levels suck, e other parts were memorable and totally rock! it was quite disappointing towards e end as e haze dampened a lot of people's mood and many just chose to go home in e end straight after e event ended unlike past years.

this year e light-up and decor is not very impressive as compared to past years' which is dampening to e mood somehow. like what hock (i met him, jasmine ling and jingyi!!!) said, it resembles e fate of rag as people nowadays are more academically-orientated thus would not really put in effort on stuff that is outside their studies, sad right? but i guess that's it for students nowadays ba... haiz... anyway, after e whole thing, i went out with my juniors to a place to eat ice-cream. i talked about my uni, more like complained about my uni life. i finally got a chance to talk about all e unhappiness w/o having to worry if whatever i say is politically correct/too extreme/hurting anyone/going to be used against me in future. i have to apologise to my juniors, they met up with me just right after i faced all e shit in uni.. i guess i have to learn...

when i go cut my hair, i also told myself that i will put behind all e things associated with me when i had long hair. i will change to be a better person, to be a better student, to be a better MC member. i shall grow up to be an adult, cos i feel that i have been behaving rather much like a kid. i am no longer a child, the nice and sweet and innocent childhood days are long gone. i shall do it to e best of my ability, life is like that. i shall learn to live life to e fullest, and like what georgia says, don't have too much trust in anyone if not you'll be e one ending up feeling disappointed and devastated. i guess i am still struggling to find my sense of self-identity. ;) people change, nothing is static, this is a rather painful lesson i experienced a lot of times but have not yet learn. life is a great tchr, i shall be its great student. :)