i think i must be too tired already, so much so that i dun feel e energy to be happy anymore from deep within my heart. yes, i can still b happy and laughing out loud watching hana kimi on youtube but that is it. full stop. i am afraid of e new semester, afraid of all e things that will come once sch starts, afraid of all e commitments i've gotten myself into, afraid of e ugliness in ppl tt i'll have to be forced to face when things started gg ugly or when pressure starts to sink in or when people start thinking for themselves more than for others. i am trying very hard to make myself think positively but it is really hard when it gets very tiring.. even worse when all ur efforts in trying to keep urself going seems fruitless already. i am not a wonder woman, i am not as good as u all think, i am not as capable, i am not e person i portray myself to be.. haha, i hate myself.. e me that i am living as now.. hahaha... crapping due to insufficient slp, pls ignore.