oh man.. i just accomplished an almost impossible task. i've been through arts camp 2007 as an o-comm member, specifically as DPD logistics. there are a lot of thoughts and emotions that run through my mind even until now. i think i'll try and sort them out properly 1st before blogging about what i did, what i went through and how i feel etc. for now, i just want to slp. very tired alr. haha, and to all ppl out there, xin yu does slp ok? dun worry about her not slp-ing, she'll concuss when tired!!! haha, anyway, before i end it off. i must thank my log team for being there through thick and thin together with me right from the start til the end! i am really glad to have you all with me, a lot of my tears today was caused by you all ok? haha. and another person that i die die must thank is jeremy, thx for having trust in me to take on such a heavy role in arts camp and walk this arduous journey alongside you. i learnt a lot after this project, thx for giving me e chance to learn and grow. thankew so much. for e rest, there's actually a whole long list of ppl to thank but i shall do it nex time, muahaha. :P

the 2 big Ms.. these 2 situations are what most people will want to try their very best to overcome... in the 1st place they wont even want it to happen... these 2 big Ms are very scary and highly destructive, i believe a lot of people will agree with it.. but somehow, no matter how hard we try, it is still inevitable that we will once in a while either get caught in the middle of one of the Ms, or witness one of them happening around you. din realise until in university that actually the occurance of these 2 Ms is high in frequency and should even be seen as part & parcel of life. random random~

hahaha, another entry full of laughter and funny memories!!! yea yea yea, ytd was a very interesting & happening day because of what happened at night all the way til e wee hours of morning nex day. after our monthly ordinary meeting where there are also laughter and fun as per usual admidst all e serious business & discussion of stuff, we decided to start moving some of our furniture to e new clubroom so that we can clear out in time for e current clubroom to be renovated into a computer lab. the initial part was not so haps as we went down and looked at e floor plan & discussed on how we can arrange e furnitures etc. it was e later part of e night where things started getting exciting~!

haha, we were moving the super duper old and authentic and extremely impt table down from the old to new clubroom and it was real funny as it seemed a very impossible task!!! haha, we tried all means & methods and there was even a point whereby e move of e table to e inner meeting room seemed impossible. den u see all e guys start throwing vulgarities at one another!!! hahaha, so funny! so corny!!! oh man, they jus keep shouting vulgar words at one another, especially reuben & lionel!!! hahaha. in e end, we persevered & managed to move e table into e room we wanted!!! we also tried locking people in e rooms, zac & mei ling fell victim throughout e night. den there was once whereby mich was freaked by tien kwan's appearance when mei ling was locked. this is bcos jus b4 tt we were talking bout mei ling escaping frm e room, tk appeared. damn funny. ok, gtg, cont nex time! bye.

I've had lots of regrets before, one is I've never managed to comfort people properly. Yes, I do listen and encourage or motivate people when they talk to me. But I've never really comfort people face to face, those type that you put your hand on tt person's shoulder & sayang to make e person feel beta, until ytd. Now I can live life w less regrets as i've learnt sth once again. ;)

I'm qt tired of being bang seh-ed by ppl alr, reali seriously. i believe a lot of other ppl also cannot tk it when ppl promise sth & den end up nvr do or took back their words rite? i know tt it's inevitable in life tt such incidents will keep occuring and such things will keep happening to me, but to be frank the feeling sucks la. i will learn to deal with it, handle it and accept it gracefully. it takes time and learning, i shall try my best to accomplish it.

feel lk having more optimistic posts in my blog & den gt some random thoughts in my head so shall jus pen it down while i still can ba. :P even though there are times when i feel really lonely, helpess & frustrated bcos of personal reasons (the real problem is myself, really), i must say that i am a very fortunate girl living in this world. especially since after exams all the things tt i go thru, all e ppl tt i interacted w, all e lessons i learnt... i am blessed. somehow or rather, things will work out for me as there'll be people popping out when i least expect them to and help me out with 200% efforts. then even when i feel tt i'm not exactly being a gd daughter, my parents were suddenly very understanding towards me. there were times when i was reali down & out but i keep them to myself. when those times arise & just when i think i cannot hold on in there anymore, some thing or someone comes along & gave me hope/motivation to keep it gg on. i've experienced so many moments of being touched so deep i think they can last me for a lifetime alr. i nvr really know or realise how blessed i am til this moment now. even thou i may not have the luxury of a good life with ample materialistic supplies, i have all e intangibles stuff tt keep me gg. all e ppl ard me, my family, u all are e things tt keep me gg, esp when e gg gets tough. thx to everyone, thankew for being part of my life. from the bottom of my heart.

yeah!!! oh my goodness, cannot reali believe tt 2 days of arts pre-camp just flew past! i'm so thankful tt i was able to make thru it w/o much major screw ups together with my log team lah! no one has any idea how scared & worried i was before e camp tt i wld flop someone's prog bcos e log wasn't ok or prepared sufficiently. althou undeniably tt dere were quite a few times where there was room for improvement, i must say i'm reali proud of my log team. reali reali, i know i've said tis a lot of times but i'm reali glad for all e trust u all hav in me to lead u all. i'm reali glad for all e times when u all jus got down to work and do all e work tt ppl will normally choose to siam w/o complaints at all! i know it had not been easy, but u all were reali very understanding towards me, giving me all e help & support i nd. being there standing at e side quietly and silently but conscientiously doing log for e 2 days. i'm reali very touched, serious. although we may not have known each other for very long time, may not have been close at e start of e whole arts camp prep, i believe thru tis arts camp journey, our friendships forged will certainly go a long way!!! thankew so much everyone. thank you rosni, thank you min joo, thank you sandra, thank you zhimin, thank you titus, thank you caleb & thank you lionel. also must thank daniel for coming to help me during pre-camp, even thou it was only for a day! u even went thru all e trouble to get a car to facilitate us for log prep. other than words of thanks, i reali duno wat else to say le.

thru this arts camp til now, i've seen how ppl work tgt, i've experienced how it feels to do log & i must say i've learnt quite a bit for myself. i know i'm not good at leading but i'm stil trying hard! even thou there may be times i feel tired, stress, depressed, frustrated, irritated, disillusioned & sick, there were also times when i feel thankful, happy, glad, appreciated & touched! for this i must thank every single ocomm member in arts camp; thank you jeremy for trusting me enough to let me handle log, thank you chuan seng, jingjun & carol for being so patient in guiding me this green horn along & going e extra mile to offer me help & advice, thank you programmers for being understanding towards me and my log team & at times helping us out, thank you e rest plus e admin ppl for always encouraging me on & showing me tender loving care. ;) i feel reali touched, i can find no ways to describe. i'm glad to be part of this journey, no matter what happens during e actual camp, i hope tt we can still make it a memorable one for e freshies & friendships'll only get stronger not weaker. no matter what difficulties i will face in e upcoming days towards arts camp, i shall hang in dere. let's all jia you to make arts camp 2007 a rocking sucess!!! FASS FORWARD man~!

yea, something happy recently so must quickly blog it down. i dowan my blog to be just about sad and troubling entries, that's not i want for my life also! i want to live a simple and happy life! hahaha, i think i can and i will. life's not that complicated right? it is just the people that makes it difficult and confusing. i shall not be one of them.

anyway, back to my happy thoughts! hahaha, really really really very very very glad to have my logistics ocomm member who consists of titus, zhimin, sandra, minjoo & rosni!!! also super duper happy to have my logistics helper for now who are daniel & lionel!!! oh man, i duno what else to say except that i'm really thankful i've been doing good deeds everyday cos i seriously believe it's due to gd karma and pure luck! i must say, if not for those people that i mentioned, who were there to support me all e way without any complaints, doubts or compromises, i would have failed my responsibilities already. a million thanks for having trust in me to lead you all on this journey of doing logistics for arts camp! thank you so much.

and so we met on last tue to settle as much of e logistics tt we can settle for arts camp. started off with discussion as we compare all e different price lists in hope of getting e cheapest we can lay our hands on. it was quite funny as they said out e price, like bidding for stock market lidat, haha. i must really say sorry to zhimin for giving him cold storage because it turned out that not only cold storage is very expensive, a lot of times it costs more but only for half e portion sold at other supermarkets!!! oh man, so really, unless u think u have too much money to spare, go other supermarkets to get your grocery please. haha, we were like saying how "aunty" we're getting as we try and scrimp with every pawn and penny. save save save, arts camp 2007 log team is e best! ;)

after comparing e prices, we set off to buy all e things! haha, shopping is fun! but i've to pay everything 1st which cost quite a bit and despite saving as much as possible, i still bust e budget, haiz. cui. never mind, i think can work something out one. so to those who thinks that arts camp is very profitable, please think again. then when we finish buying, we came back to pack the different logistics which is not complete as a lot of things still has not come in yet. sometimes even when you ask people to help alr, eventually u'll still have to rely on urself to get things done. this is a lesson of life ba. anyway, after doing log, my log team people went to help out at rag!!! oh man, i'm so so so so so touched!!! cos they were e ones who suggested doing it! thankew so much, i feel so proud to be able to lead u all, really.

all in all, i really enjoyed myself for the day. hope there're more such days to come! (:

I got a lot of things that I feel like talking it out to someone... I feel so frustrated and troubled these few days... My mind so clouded with a lot of issues... I feel very very very high inertia in doing a lot of things... I know I need a break or something but I just cannot let go enough... I want to delegate, I want to let other people help me... But who else can I delegate to? Who else can help me? A lot of times I feel like just switching off to the outside world, crawl into somewhere where no one can find me... I also cannot really talk to anyone either... Haha... Lucky I can still talk to myself, at least.