I have finally come to a decision. Confirming it by telling Lionel that I wont be in his ROP comm. I don't really have an idea what to expect. But I know it will not be easy. To everyone out there who discouraged me from running, I understand & appreciate all your care, concern and thoughts for me. really hope that from now on you all can be there supporting me for e coming 1 yr, aiding me in my self-discovering & maturation process. to those who've been giving me advice (hock, bit, alvin, lionel, reuben & jianwu), thx lots too. I will give in my best shot w all my heart & soul. (: