I guess this is the 1st time when I really blog about my studies, about how difficult I am finding it to cope, how stressed I feel when every single weekend passes like nobody's business. Year 2 is really more tedious and demanding than Year 1... A lot more projects, a lot more initiatives, a lot more self-discipline to do the things as lecturers push you even lesser now. I keep feeling overwhelmed with a lot of things, a lot of things forever in my mind, a lot of issues to settle & to deal with. A lot of times not daring to sleep too long for fear of not completing stuff, rushing here and there doing things, feeling tired and not absorbing knowledge during lectures & tutorials. I feel very guilty and sorry towards all my project mates for all my modules, because of my other commitments I was not able to do more for our projects or assignments or essays. I really want to do more. But I feel really tired also. My head hurts more often and with more intensity than usual... I need to sneak & steal time for myself to destress, multi-tasking as much as possible in hope of getting more things done. I also need to immune myself against the grades that I get now, cannot let it affect me or I will feel even worse. I am tired, really tired. I am sorry if I could have done more but I did not. I really did not mean to...