the higher your expectations, the greater your disappointments. this is one thing that is real true but also one lesson that somehow or rather people never learn their lesson from. making the effort is a lot, it really matters. i guess i cannot always take it for granted that people will make the effort i cannot expect people to make the effort just because they are friends. these thoughts are depressing, i did not ever want to think about it but when it is smacked right into your face, can i help it if it floods my mind?