时间飞逝而去，转眼间，一年又要过去了。虽然说时间过得很快，但是同时又不免觉得似乎已经过了半个世纪般漫长，很矛盾对吗？2007年，将是我人生中最难忘的一年吧，经历了那么多。甚至可以说是经历太多太多了。这一年，我无时无刻犹如处在备战状态，几乎每分每秒心惊胆跳。因为要面对的挑战实在是不胜枚举，所以不得已把自己的精神紧绷起来。这一年，我经历了许多的第一次，酸甜苦辣自己心知。这一年很像是在战场上度过的，弄得自己一身遍体鳞伤，很多的时候身心疲惫不堪。最佳良伴莫过于自己的眼泪，有往肚子里吞的，也有躲在角落时默默掉落的。不知不觉，自己被逼成长了许多。

虽然只在世上活了短短二十年，但是好多时候觉得自己好像苍老的噢巴桑，想起来还蛮滑稽的，哈哈。回想起来，这一年也应该算是我的人生中最精彩的一年了。有好有坏、有希望有绝望、有快乐有悲伤、有期望有失望、有进步有跌倒、有起有落、凹凸不平、曲折弯曲、冷暖自知。2008就要来了，我只有那么一点点的小贪心，愿家人朋友开开心心，健健康康。新的一年会发生什么事我也不知道，就以一颗平常心去面对吧。有点感情泛滥，但这绝对不是情绪化。^-^

Friends. I love the feeling of being able to talk about anything under the sun with someone. To share your thoughts, opinions and feelings with the person without having to restrict or restrain yourself in any way. I feel truly blessed, really, to have a lot of such people around me. Friends are for forever, they may not be always around you, they may not always talk a lot with you, but you know that they will be there. This type of feeling is wonderful. (:

A lot of times I will be pondering about this question. Should I be living a life that I want, or should I live it the way people would want me to? I really do not have an idea. Life is about choices, this I understand very clearly. However, sometimes, these choices are not easy at all to make. There are also times which I may regret choices that I made in the past but yet have to live through with it as that was what I decided. Once again, I am at a crossroad, not knowing whether I should live and do things as I want, or I should live and do things the way that most people around me would hope for me to. I really hate myself for not loving myself more, for not thinking for myself more. I think I will be hating myself once again for this decision made, but I will not regret. This I believe so. How about you?

Just realise I have the photos from the chalet with me! Haha, shall blog about it once again~ ;)
The photos that follow will show that our MC members are all very good at preparing dishes that are delicious oh! Hope you all don't drool on keyboard looking at the pictures, heez. To have a taste of it, come for Arts Club Chalet on 8th Jan 2008 @ Aloha Changi Fairy Point Bungalow 2!!! ^-^

Haha, Eugene shocked at the spread of the feast for dinner at the chalet prepared by Naga & I. (:

Formosa specially prepared by Naga. Started off being squarish one oh. :P

The fruit salad wonderfully prepared by Eugene. Look at the feast of colours!!! So pretty!

Ham & Cheese sandwich plus tuna sandwich prepared "tediously" prepared by May! She took hours but it's very nice!!!

Peach agar agar jelly personally prepared by Desmond! It is super chewy like those Japansese ones!!!

Everyone playing card games, really chilling out at the chalet!

Eating ice-cream kindly sponsored by Samuel!!! When you share, things taste better! ;)

Hanna beautifully done up by Naga on May's, Hui Ying's & my hands.

When the night approaches, we sit outside of the chalet and have heart to heart talks while drinking on the drinks kindly sponsored by Hwee Guang.

Haha, shall end off this blog post with the photo that I loved most from the chalet. I simply love the shadows and the colours!!! :P

This holidays as per my past 2 holidays is happening, brimming with a lot of activities, meetings, outings, gatherings and stuff to do. My to-do list always seems never-ending, just when I feel that it seems shorter, it became longer instead within a change of thought or an email/sms/phone call received. I will forever feel that there is too many things to be done and too little time left to do everything. Sometimes feel rather overwhelmed but I guess that is just going to be my life until next year. Lucky I have my different variations of Cannon in D to accompany me and help me destress.

That day went for interview for F O P, was asked to tell the people there how is the Xin Yu in the past different from the Xin Yu now. Actually thought about it for quite a while when I was typing the proposal as I ended off saying that what I was 1 year ago is different from what I am right now. After going through so much, especially F O P this year and settling all the elections stuff, I feel myself changing. For one, Xin Yu is no longer as emo as she used to be. That one is for real, even I am amazed at how unaffected I can be by matters that will make me cry like mad in the past. I do not know if this is good or bad, but having a greater control of your emotions should be good right? Sometimes, I really feel that I have aged so much I feel old. This is super funny and ironic, I can be same age or younger than some people but when I speak to them I feel super old, like I have been through so so so much. But to be frank, I did go through quite a bit ever since I came into NUS. Changes can be for the better, they can also be for the worse, just hope that mine belongs to the former ba. (:

Yesterday went with Amy down to a potential sponsor's shop to talk about collaborating for Bike Quest. Even though the shop was located at a super ulu place, the owners were very amicable. After staying there for around 1hour, it looks like we will have one more main sponsor for Bike Quest! Haha, yea man! When Amy and I were talking to the owner, he told us that he actually heard about Bike Quest before and thought of us when deciding to try publicising their business and services to potential customers outside their niche target area! I really have no idea that our projects were actually noticed by the public so significantly. Therefore, it is really important that everytime we do a project well so that there can be continuity and also more popularity gained. Arts Club projects is not just about the year itself when it is being organised, it goes longer and further than that. Take pride in whatever you are doing as there is not much people out there who can have the opportunity to be involved in such projects before. I am thankful and feel blessed to be what and where I am right now. (: Hard it may be, but it is all worth it.

Just came back from a chalet yesterday with my fellow members. Even though it was only for a night, I really enjoyed myself in the company of you guys. Thanks for being such great company throughout the chalet, I do not know how to put my exact thoughts and feelings from the chalet in words also. Just that I know somehow you all will definitely be with me side by side for the coming year ahead. Tired already, shall go sleep! (:

Hahahahaha, I drove on the roads non-stop for around 1 hour yesterday!!! Woohoo! Wheee~~~ Haha, I am like super high ever since my driving lesson ended at 9.30pm loh. Finally, I am steps nearer to fulfilling my dream of obtaining a manual license and be able to drive! Even though there were times I was stressed on the road as I have to change gear, step on the clutch, accelerate and stop. I have to say that I really enjoy being able to drive legally on the road! I drove from Bukit Gombak to Jurong East! I reached a speed of 70km/h on my 1st lesson! Haha, I am already hoping that my second lesson can come right now! ^-^ Xin Yu shall obtain her manual lesson by FOP next year!!!

Hahahahahahahaha, I have passed my basic theory test and gotten my provisional driving license!!! ^-^ Yea yea yea, and right on the same day later at night I am learning manual driving from the private instructor already!!! Haha, so so so so so so exciting! I can finally drive!!! hahahahahahahahaha. :D super duper happy!!! haha, shall go get my license before FOP starts! I can do it! Yea man, left final theory test and driving test only. shall pass on the 1st go! I believe therefore I can! Go book my final theory test~

woohoo!!! finally manage to go shopping after a llllllooooooonnnnnngggggg time!!! i think the last time i really went shopping in town was like before FOP which also means before exams last semester! that is really long ago come to think of it. maybe 1 yr ago even! haha, i dont care already, more importantly is i went shopping today! xin yu has a life one ok? :P

spent a nice $200 buying all the neccessities which i have been waiting waiting and waiting to buy for a loooooooong time. jeans, tops and nice sandals! must say a huge word of thanks to kai wai! it was a gr8 time spent shopping w u!!! thankew so much for e time spent together!!! ^-^ i finally manage to be nice to myself after a long time, it feels good to pamper urself once in a while, therefore retail therapy does exist! haha. okie dokie, that's all from a happy xin yu after shopping with kai wai~! ;) back to more typing!

Still feeling rather tired after coming back from the camp, did not really manag to get much of a sleep as work starts right after the camp ends. Got a shock when I checked my mail and spent hours replying to every single one. Even though I still have to keep thinking about other things during the camp itself, I must say that I enjoyed the camp pretty well. The workshop was great and super enriching, the programmes useful and appropriate and fun most of the time, the food was of better standard and lastly my group synergy was wonderful.

I must say that I am real fortunate to always be able to be in groups that are not too bad whenever I go for stuff and get allocated into groups with people I do not know. I always get to work with different people with different characteristics and different working styles, yet enjoy the process and results. Even though it was only a short camp of 2 and a half days, I guess I can say I like every second of it. (: I think my group this year was the only one where everyone of us got dumped into the pool, facilitators and campers alike. We even took a photo with everyone of us in the pool can!

Haha, really enjoyed myself, thank you fantastic 4 for giving me the wonderful memories. The times when we tried to cheer, when we played heart attack, when we played polar bears, when we rehearsed for our own MTV... I enjoyed myself much more than I did last year, thank you for making the camp an enjoyable one for me, making me forget for moments of time my other responsibilities and commitments. ^-^ Back to work~

Another rather inspiring story, actually it is the reflections that are motivating but without the story it will seem a bit pointless also. Hope that those who do not read chinese often can take this opportunity of surfing my blog to get touch with your long lost mother tongue! Haha, I will try in future if I have the time to translate the stories. For now, those who do not understand can choose to ask me though. :P Enjoy~

牛顿用三棱镜分解太阳光的实验
亚里士多德曾经说过，白光是一种纯的没有其他颜色的光，而有色光是一种不知何故发生变化的光。但伟大的物理学家牛顿不信这个邪，他做了这样一个实验：把一面三棱镜放在阳光下，透过三棱镜，光在墙上被分解为不同颜色，后来人们称其为光谱。人们知道彩虹的五颜六色，但是他们认为那是因为不正常。但牛顿最终得出结论：正是这些红、橙、黄、绿、青、蓝、紫的基础色有不同色谱才形成了表面上颜色单一的白色光，牛顿后来说：“如果你深入地看看，会发现白光使非常美丽的。”

实验感悟：“是啊，白光不一定就不美丽，在它平淡的外表下，就隐藏着赤橙黄绿青蓝紫。就如我们的生活，大部分的时候，它就像一杯白开水，平淡而无味，但是如果我们用心去感受，我们就会发现，无论多么平淡的生活，都可以过得绚丽而多姿多彩，只要你心中充满阳光，只要你心中充满快乐。
著名雕塑家罗丹曾经说过：“生活中并不缺乏美，缺乏的，只是发现美的眼睛。”所以，你不要抱怨生活的平淡和乏味，也不要抱怨工作的繁忙和疲累，你所需要的是去发现，去创造，因为很多五彩缤纷的时刻就隐藏在这平淡的生活中。快快找到属于自己的三棱镜，把你看似平淡的生活过得丰富多彩吧！”
Courtesy of 张乐昆《青少年不可不知的99个实验》（北京：中国时代经济出版社，2006）

Before I know it, in the blink of an eye, my 1st semester for the 2nd year is over! That is like super duper fast! This semester is exciting in terms of events and activities for me. And also a time whereby there were a lot of first times. A lot of extreme ups and downs also I figure. But I guess I myself also learnt a lot of stuff and also a lot of things about myself upon the end of this semester. Even though I do not feel the same way for my academic achievements, it is always about my MC stuff in NUS. I do not dare to imagine the 2nd semester. I can only say I will be really amazed at myself if I manage to complete the next semester and not be too drained or anything.

A lot of seniors are having their last semester next semester. Am going to miss those ever familiar faces around in Arts Faculty. Once exam ends, other things have to start. I just want and need a break. I will have a break. (:

"We first must think "I can," then behave appropriately along that line of thought." -with courtesy of 'To Build the Life You Want, Create The Work You Love: The Spiritual Dimension of Entrepreneuring' by Marsha Sineta-

Exams are coming to an end soon, then my motivational quote episodes will come to an end. Really hope that it does motivate some of you through this tough period of mugging and revision. To those who still have papers left must jia you ok? No matter what, I will still be around to really offer moral support, I will not break my promise to be in clubroom all the way until 7th Dec 2007 (Fri). I will not be enjoying like how people do after all their papers, trust me, I mean it when I say I am going to miss the mugging days. Like I mean all the other things I have ever said in my life. Life's hard but life goes on. Add oil! (:

"The roots of education are bitter, but the fruit is sweet." -with courtesy of 'The Forbes Book of Business Quotations: 14,266 Thoughts on the Business of Life'-

Now left with 1 more week of exams in NUS. Some have even finished all their papers in NUS for this semester, whereas there is still a portion of students who are still struggling with the revision for majority of their papers. It is quite hard and sianz-fied when your friends are already enjoying their holidays and you still have to study for exams. But no worries as you are never alone! There will definitely be some NUS students out there who either have the same plight or worse plight than you de. Hang in there! Less than 1 more week only! Keep the "fruit" in mind. ;)

Been mugging with friends either inside clubroom or at a bench at blk adm level 3 for this semester. I feel very lucky to have friends, a rather huge group I must say, studying together with me. The feeling of working hard together for a common purpose is great. The thing about suffering the same stress and worries together with your friends is comforting. From primary school til junior college, I used to be envious of people who can find friends to study together in a group as I will study alone most of the times. I think I have this longing inside me all along, and finally in university I can get to be like those people which I used to envy.

Thank you to everyone who has mugged with me before, thanks for being my source of motivation and for giving me moral support during this tough period. Thank you Kai Wei, Tien Kwan, Evelyn, Bingde, Michelle, Zhimin, Remmy, Chuan Seng, Lionel, Eugene, May, Zheng Chuan, Desmond, Samuel, Hwee Guang, Applie, Xiao Yan, Mei Ling, Pearl, Shu Ping, Serene, Cindy, Ke Ching, Jeremy and anyone else I missed out. (hopefully none. :P) Haha, it is quite sick to say this but I will miss all the mugging times and sometimes even wish that it will not end. Haha. Okie dokie, back to books again. Everybody jia you jia you jia jia you!!! (: