This week has been the most emotionally-packed one, I have never had such a week before in my life. Extreme ups and extreme downs, throwing me off track a lot of times, tossing me around and around and here and there. Thank you Mei Ling, Sandra and Min Joo for being there and trying within your means to cheer me up, talk me around and help me in whatever ways you all can. Must say big thanks to Lester and Zeren for helping me with Futsal Open marketing too!!! If not by now I would have long been pronounced dead. :)))

Not being appreciated is one thing, being taken for granted is another thing. Most of the time I feel appreciated, I seriously do. But it is again human nature to take things for granted. I am also a uni student, being yr 2 somemore. I am also someone's daughter, someone's siblings, someone's grand daughter, someone's friend etc. I am also in the ocomm of projects and helping out in whatever ways I can. I am also a human who needs sleep, food and tender loving care at times. Must stress that I am not complaining here but rather just trying to set some facts straight. With great power comes great responsibility, that applies for authority too.

Shall stop getting disinhibited and start talking about more happy things! I went back to Anderson Secondary and saw my students, my juniors, my cadet mates and fellow teacher-in-charge! Haha, even though it is only for like a short 10 minutes, better than nothing lah. Really feel that I cannot make promises to people outside NUS Arts & Social Sciences Faculty so long as I am in the club's management committee. I will just keep breaking them, and it is very bad! Sorry I did not go earlier and cannot stay longer. Seeing my students stepping up to be seniors, my heart just cannot stop itself but swell with pride. Machiam like seeing your own child go on stage take some certificates of achievement like that. Ooops, motherly instinct running wide again. :P

Then there was dear Kai Wai's 21st birthday party at Botanical Gardens!!! Wooohooo!!! So happening, so big scale, so much good food, so much fun, so much singing and so much laughter! Kudos to PD Zhimin, and also the many many many people who made the event possible! All the birthday celebrations are getting bigger and bigger, growing exponentially in scale!!! So glad to be able to be part of the event!! Really enjoyed myself a lot! :))) That night holds a lot of wonderful memories for everyone of us who went. Even managed to see the clear night sky and identify all the constellations that I learnt from Understanding the Universe together with Min Joo and Xiuwen!

And there was FASS Quiz! Even though signup was lesser than last year, in general the project did come to a good closure with no major screwups. I really do not like experiencing same projects 2 years in a row! It is not very good to compare but sometimes I just cannot stop myself also. Hai. Working with different people in different environment under different time frame and circumstances, there will be different experiences, different expectations, different feelings, thoughts and opinions. Every project means different things to every individual, there will then be different roles and responsibilities which people choose to take up. Am I making any sense? Haha.

Anyway, tomorrow's FOOD HUNT 2008!!! Wheeee!!! Haha, really looking so so so much forward to this day! Hope for everything to go the way we'd planned for it to be and at the end of the event every single person present, be it participants, facilitators or ocomm members, will have a huge smile on their face as we congratulate one another on our success!!! ^-^

我从来都不知道原来自己的眼泪有那么的多。。。那时，真真切切觉得世界就那么崩溃了，因为自己已经不知道应该如何站起来。从来没有如此歇斯底里地哭出来，哭到喉咙沙哑，哭到眼睛红肿，似乎就像五年前当祖父与世长辞时的那样。原来，哭泣也是需要很多能量，过后真的觉得身体虚脱不已。我想自己真的憋了好久，释放出来应该是好的吧？希望这是第一次，也是最后一次。。。

Within the blinking of an eye, another FASS Club project is over and done with. I am proud to say that Beach Fiesta 2008 was a success!!! Despite everything that happened, all the obstacles that have to be overcome, all the problems that fall upon last minute, all the fire fighting, all the anxieties, all the worries, all the tension, all the nerve wreck... we managed to pull through.

Special mention to dear pd Ying Ling, dear dpds Naga & Ade plus dear treasurer Xiao Yan, a lot of things were settled among the few of you so that the rest of the ocomm need not worry much. This project had a very tough delivery but nevertheless it happened and we can all taste the sweet fruits of success.

Even though it rained at the end, it may have been a blessing in disguise ya? Furthermore, we are already very lucky to have the sun for the majority of the event looking at how bad the weather had been for the past few days before the event.

Going down the night before to set up, going around on the actual day to welfare everyone, hiding under the umbrella to stay away from the scorching sun, taking pictures of everyone in action or hard at work... All so familiar to me as these are the things I did last year at Beach Fiesta too. Even though this time with higher intensity and fervour as I am in the ocomm and is not just a helper. Looking at the beach filled up with participants of the different sports, seeing the players show their wit and stamina on the field, watching the ocomm members sweating and standing under the sun for the project... it is really touching. I believe it is this feeling that propels many of us to come back to help out FASS Club events again and again.

There is always another side that people do not often see, the less glam side. What I want to say is that everyone needs to feel appreciated no matter how small the thing is, no matter how little the help is. The important thing is the appreciation, and it must come from deep within the heart. Nobody likes to do the things which most people shun, but why do they still do? Most of the time, it is just to help friends out. Such friendships are hard to come by, I will treasure those that I have. A senior once told me, your true friends will stand the test of time and hardship. I am glad to have those that will stand by me no matter what happens, really. :)))

不喜欢看见自己在乎的人争吵，心里所承受的压力会让我无法呼吸，似乎周围的空气把我团团包围住了。



有时候，自己会变得反常。有时候，会对所发生的事情感到失望。有时候，对于自己无法改变的一些现实而懊恼无比。有时候，我希望会有那么一个人在我身旁。。。



友谊，是一门很深奥的学问，也是一件很奇妙的东西。很多时候，真的渴望自己能简简单单地过着想要的生活，做自己想做的事。

人不为己，天诛地灭。真的是这样吗？



人善被人欺，马善被人骑。真是如此？



无条件的付出，不比那些千方百计所索到的帮助更来得珍贵，更让人心领。是这样吗？



人际关系好复杂，真的好复杂。是人，都会变。心绪混淆，胡思乱想，空悲切。

This goes out to all my concerned friends out there. I am feeling ok already ya? Do not worry about me, I will be fine as my vision is more or less ok le! :))) I was not feeling well and stuff but I am officially feeling ok, really. ^-^ Thanks for all your concern, my heart is warm despite the cold weather. ;)

Steroid Responsive Glaucoma.

3 foreign words that mean nothing if you do not know the meaning. But once you check it out, you will feel like the sky has just fallen on you. I need my hero to come back fast.

黄城夜韵的感动，我今晚再一次感受到了！好久好久没有那种微妙的感觉，实在是太难以令人相信了。虽然三部剧只有最后一部印象最深刻，但是整体的感受，却是非笔墨所能形容的。

谢谢今年黄城的学弟学妹们，让我有想哭的冲动。让我不知不觉回想起许多过去的种种，真的让我无法自拔。道具永远最棒！我所有的震撼力，都来自于你们的心血。

谢幕前许下的约定，我们黄城的人有很多都做到了。谢幕后所说的约定，我们一年后一定履行。可惜，明年我要缺席了。但是，爱黄城的那一颗心，无论如何都不会停。

发觉自己为了它做得太多太多了，多出了自己应该做的范围外，超出了太多了，多到——我累了。真的累了，只想这一切快点结束。哈哈，我真的不想干了。已经是有点失去理智，并且失去公正，甚至不顾一切。为什么会这样，为什么？很多事情并不是我想要的，又有谁能来帮我完成？我需要的是实际的帮助，但是每次又开不了口，只能说是自己活该。没关系，多一个月，就多一个月罢了。。。

Huge thanks to Samantha!!! Lotsa thanks to Liting!!! Big thanks to Mei Ling!!! Great thanks to Sandra!!! Million thanks to Kai Wei!!! I made it! I did it! Everything went successfully!!! Thanks for the emotional support, especially Sandra and Kai Wei, I almost ran away loh. :P

Going under the white light without knowing what will happen next is petrifying. Going through something risky with no friends beside you is terrifying. You can only rely on yourself and the thoughts of people who matter to you to maintain your calm and keep you going.

I am proud of myself for facing everything bravely. I have spared my parents of the anxiety by dealing with everything single-handedly on my own. I feel like my age. ;)

明天，只许成功，不许失败。为我祈福吧。(:

went back to my jc during the weekend to fulfil my role as a snr. was feeling proud of e jnrs who were brave enough to be part of this huge production. i must say i am impressed with their performances and the shows this year. anticipating it unfolding on VT stage man!!! ^-^

有时候，不是什么事情都需要说出来的，因为无声胜有声啊。了解吗？

五年。转眼间那么多年过去了。您总算肯认我了。迟到好过没到。承诺过的事终于能兑现。谢谢老天爷让我还有机会在您有生之年尽点孝心。愿您身体健健康康、年寿长长久久，因为我欠您的太多太多了。