somehow or rather, people just seemed to disappoint me one after another these few days. i'm not trying to say that they should not disappoint me, neither am i saying that i never disappoint people before as it is impossible. however, what i am trying to say is that it hurts especially when the people happen to be the ones you have chosen to put close to the heart already.

ya, i do understand that sometimes people do not really mean what they say at certain points of time. as someone who has been thru more, i shld know that things are bound to be like that and be graceful in accepting whatever that comes my way, not holding it to heart. but it still has an impact, i am not an unfeeling object that can be thrown or pushed about as and when one wants. i want to be nice to myself, but at the same time i want even more to be nice to the people around me who has come to matter a lot to me. why is it so hard to reconcile these two? why is it either this or that so many times? just rambling. i need this outlet to keep me sane.