Sometimes in life you feel like a piece of tissue paper, once used and you are thrown aside. But why sulk because of this? At least you were useful once. ;) Better than towels that are left on shelfs or left folded in cupboards that doesn't see the light of a day right? :)

To all tissue papers, gambate! ^.^

Back in my alma mater for relief teaching after being done with attachment earlier on. Really loved the interaction a teacher has with her students. Really enjoyed talking to the teachers about how to manage and guide the students. Even though a lot of people said I was crazy to take up relief teaching, I did not regret it.

Yes, it was tiring. Yes, it was hectic as I still have to handle CCA matters while at work. Yes, I could have rested more at home or at school to prepare for O-Week or school start. But, I am absolutely loving it. It is not because of the money (totally not worth it given the amount of work I do), but rather to pave a path for my future teaching career. I must first love and take care of myself before I can spread the love and show concern for others. :)

Less than 1 month & FOP 2008 will come to an end. Everyone chiong ah! ;)

In life, it is about finding balance in whatever you do constantly. We can never be too extreme in our words, actions, opinions and stands. How to find the balance is something that most of us are not able to answer because it is not easy at all. That is why we have to constantly learn and upgrade ourselves in order to handle the challenges ahead. Maintain a balance, do not topple your life as it will take time to get everything back on track.

Everyone jiayou! It is all coming to an end soon. :)

I miss Arts Camp 2007. I miss my logistics team. I miss the bonding. I miss the strong support. I miss the times when the whole bunch of us just stood by one another from the start until the end. I miss the feeling of one whole FOP ocomm being together and not segregated in anyway.

I will not allow myself to regret again. I will not allow myself to be affected. I will not allow history repeating itself. To my dear gergers, mama's always there no matter what happens. :) Let us follow our heart and do the things that will make us happy. We shall be happy, let's jiayou together~ We believe thus we can! Together therefore we can make a difference. ;)

I miss Arts Camp 2006. I miss the fun. I miss the cheering. I miss the laughter. I miss the games. I miss the feeling of enjoying the programmes with an OG. I am missing it so so so much all of a sudden... Will I get a chance to relive those moments again?

People are emotional beings, therefore we tend to attach ourselves to other human beings or objects that we come constantly in touch with. Emotions grow with time, thus emotions also fade with time. Sometimes, we put the wrong feelings on people due to a moment of impulse. Sometimes, we waste feelings and thoughts on the wrong people due to circumstances. After a long time (years not months or weeks or days), if it still feels the same I guess everything has crossed over to the safe side. But the only constant in life is change (can be a sad or happy fact), we can never be rigid and expect all else stays the way it does just because you feel that you have not changed much. The actual fact is that you may have changed, just that you are not conscious of it.

A lot of times, I just hope that I can be a robot devoid of all emotions. Learning to let go, that is an important lesson in life. :) 只有放手，才能得到更多。

Finally, after hours of walking to and fro room 409 and 431, I am comfortably settled in my new home at RVR. Thankew Samuel for helping me move the fridge!!! :))) Welcome to visit me wor~! ;)

Even though initially I was rather against a change of room when I am still staying in RVR, I guess it was a blessing in disguise. I was forced to clean up my new room and vacate my old room, setting aside things to be disposed of my personal storeroom. I saw for myself how much dust has already collected in my room after 1 year of stay. It is scary, to think I did clean up once in a while, that it seems insufficient.

During the midst of the shift, I was hit with waves and waves of fatigue and body ache. There comes a point of time when I do not want to shift at all anymore. Thanks to Mei Ling, Kai Wei & Ming Guang for the mental support and encouragement! Though all of you very seh and shagged already, you all still spurred me on with words!!! Arigato!

Anyway, the new room was better but not much as I still have to clean away dusts and kill all the long-legged spiders in my room. At least 10 in total can! In general, I have no complaints for my new room except that the view is terrible. I see the pantry and nothing else. Sian. But otherwise, this room is close to both the toilet and pantry. Which is a good thing I presume?

Must start clearing my room of all the things I have accumulated for the past 1 year plus. If not I will really have difficulty when I need to shift out of RVR. Really very cui liao, shall go catch 2 hrs of sleep before I will be hit with activities after activities for the whole weekend. Yawnz...

Went back yesterday for the HCJC Chinese Society's Annual Celebration after 1 whole day of madness at FMSS for their big-scale fun fair. Totally forgot about the event due to all the other activities and events happening for the past week. Caught a cab down with my fellow MOE mate who wanted to go back for Alumni Choir even though it was the peak hour. Bo bian, the fun fair took longer than we were told of. Tiring but fun! :)

Was tempted to give the celebration a miss after feeling super shagged from the fun fair. But lucky I went, I think I would have knocked my head in the wall many many times if I gave it a miss this year. So many of my junior batch went this year!!! oh my goodness, so many of them I have not seen for at least 1 year! It was really really very very very happy and heart-warming to see them again! Felt really bad for not staying in constant contact with most of them due to CCA commitments in NUS but nevertheless glad that the friendship still feels the same.

All the past memories of the days where we stood shoulder to shoulder, fighting hard together with only 1 aim in mind. To make our drama production the best that it can ever be, to leave a lasting impression in our audience after watching our shows... Those were the days, the good old days. The times when we are doing shit together but it felt like we are doing the greatest things on earth. Talking to those juniors and catching up with one another, I will willingly give up days of my life just to have more of such sessions. I felt happy and blessed, to be able to have met such a great bunch of people in my life. After talking to some of them, listening to their advice, hearing from them, I seem to see a light flickering in front of me out of total darkness. I may just be able to find back my passion, spirit and enthusiasm.

Even though I will be one of the oldest seniors to ever go back next year, I will not give hui qing a miss ever again. Treasure the past memories but work hard in maintaining present relations. Shit Happens Everyday, why be bothered by it so much?

Right now seating at the temporary staff room area given to us people from MOE on attachment, in school because there is a fun fair! Haha, to have a fun fair so nicely slotted into the attachment can be a blessing in disguise ba. Even though we were told to do sai gang, it was nevertheless an eye-opening experience.

We were put in-charge to set up a supermarket in the school hall to sell items donated by students and parents plus some snacks from Sheng Shiong. It was quite an enriching time, many thoughts crossed my mind while doing this with my fellow MOE mates. Haha, these few days my mind never stop thinking about a lot of matters anyway. Yep yep, seeing so many items from the students, I have to say that the school spirit is strong. Furthermore, because of this fun fair, they made next week 3 days into e-learning days so that the kids and teachers can get a good rest before chiong-ing. This of course does not apply to the sec. 4 who have to prepare for the coming O-levels.

The school really puts in effort to think for the staff and students in the school. It is heartening to see schools like this. They even specially put aside 2 days to set up for the fun fair. Living by the belief of working hard and playing hard. Seeing the kids running around, getting all excited setting up their stalls and having fun with their classmates at the same time, I feel really envious. I miss my secondary school days. I miss Anderson all of a sudden. Though it was not all just happiness and laughter, I loved the days and I loved my class. Sometimes, I wonder why time pass so fast, with the blinking of an eye I am a legal adult under the law. Growing up is not an easy process. More responsibilities piling up on your shoulders, you have to take charge.

Speaking of which, I guess the saying that university is a pretty good representative of the society is rather true. These few days being in the school, I have seen all sorts of people, where many are like shadows of people whom I already know in NUS. I want to be truthful to myself and the people around me. I shall learn to do so. Looking forward to hands-on time where I can interact with students once again. I miss teaching, I miss my students back in Anderson. Haha, it is the time of the month again. Bleah.

1. 原本以为自己已经麻木，显然没有因为越想越痛。
2. 不断回头希望看到你追来，但是后不见来者仍成为了现实。
3. 是是非非，纷纷绕绕，强颜欢笑被当作打心底开心，好好好讽刺。
4. 当为别人所做的一切被化为乌有、被遗忘时，那和自打巴掌没什么两样。
5. 感激让你受伤的人，因为没有他们你就没有机会学习如何调养伤口并重新站起。

1. The truth always hurts.
2. Tough times are the best tests on your friendships.
3. Not speaking up does not mean there is no injustice at all.
4. Being nice to people does not equate to being an easy pushover.
5. Consider all factors from all aspects before coming to any conclusion.
6. Everyday, everything happening everytime around may just blind us from seeing what is the exact big picture leading to decisions that could then result in regrets later.
7. I will do what I can within my limits and capabilities to stick to my beliefs, even if it means causing displeasure; this is my last FOP, my last MC, I will do anything so long as I can answer to myself at the end.