I am supposed to be having lesson now. But I have been nodding off for my past 3 lessons that I figured it was no point going for the 4th but last one. I should not have slept so late last night but there were things to be done. Somemore the 3rd lesson ended much earlier than expected so the temptation to go back room was too great. And comparing walking back in the cold wind in the day with walking back in the colder wind at night, the former was just too good not to be taken.

1st lesson that I ponned, feels very uneasy, not like the times when I do that more than often back in NUS. Maybe because everyone here takes lessons seriously, they do not absent themselves for no reasons and they are always on time if not earlier for lessons to chop seats. But I guess the lesson was ok to pon as it was the same lecturer I have in Year 1 Semester 1 for CL1101E, the one and only lecturer by far who post everything on powerpoint then read off from them during lessons. So long as I lay my hands on the slides, things should not be too bad...

For the 1st time since I can remember, I am really taking studies very seriously. Worried if I do not understand what is being taught in class, stressed to want to study ahead and to prepare for lessons before I go so that I do not feel lost, desperate to constantly keep notes for the 8 modules which I am taking (plus 1 more which I am sitting in). I do enjoy going for lessons, I even loved some modules so much I do not feel time pass by during class. But I am concerned, and anxious... Hope things will get better as the weeks pass by, not worse...