Recently found a way to check my results for the past 5 semesters. I know this sounds so noob but I really had no idea how before yesterday. Looked through my results and my performance in the past... Because I have screwed it up so many times before...

Now, I need to achieve the impossible in my eyes for the next 2 semesters. I need to achieve an average of A/A+ for all my remaining modules during my remaining semesters. No room for mistakes, no room for failure, no more 2nd chance left... If I want to get 2nd upper honours and continue to take Masters before I go into NIE. I have to do it...

Just cannot help but think that I was the one who brought all these upon myself, I have been doing things without much proper planning and thinking through. I had given in so much of what I have in my University days to everywhere except my studies. I do not know if I should feel regret. I know in life you cannot have everything but is what I am having and losing now what I really want? I can no longer turn back time. Can I do it...?