It has been a long time since I fell so sick I was just too weak to put up a strong front to hide it from my parents. I was a goner for the past 4 days, cooping myself up at home with TV and readings as company. No laptop, no internet connection, I was lost to the happenings in school, I was cut off from all my friends (except those whom I manage to exchange sms with). I was "forced" to care about no one but me and myself. I guess it can be called a blessing in disguise?

I have no idea what happened, or what caused me to suddenly have food poisoning symptoms. Maybe it was an accumulation of everything bad I have been doing to my body ever since I came back from China. My body just gave up on me. I throw up all that I ate. I keep going to the toilet all through the night. I slipped and fell in my own vomit. I keep going between fevers and shivers. I felt so useless as I cannot do anything to make myself feel better, even the medicine didnt work for the 1st few days. I felt like a handicap as my parents have to clean up the mess I made. I felt terrible.

This shall be a lesson to me, not to take things for granted. This shall also be a reminder to me, despite everything my parents will always be the ones there for me. Lastly, this incident allows me to reflect upon my thoughts on certain things in life too. Get Well Soon Xin Yu. v(n_n)v