It has been a long time since I last blogged as I basically have not been really thinking about things other than my presentations, essays, assignments and deadlines. But recently I have been considering the prospect of doing something crazy, which is yet very me at the same time.

Talking to some people and hearing about some things made me think about recognition. It is something that can be easily or painstakingly earned, unlike respect which requires real skill or hardwork. Normally recognition comes with respect, but there are also many a times when it doesnt. You can be respected as a person, but your efforts or contributions are not recognised. I guess it also depends on the scenario, situation and circumstances surrounding everything.

I have seen people whose contributions are simply not recognised as others choose to judge them based on their subjective scales. I am not saying it is the fault of those who judged, they are just being human beings. I can only say that life is never fair, none of us ever a saint. Despite that, I have to keep reassuring myself it is alright as I just happen to not have the capabilities, characteristics or personalities which stand out enough to be recognised easily. This sucks as my already low self-confidence drops further. It makes me feel horrible. Some people may say, I should not allow myself to be subjected to being affected by other people's lack of respect and recognition for me. I find it impossible to do so. Maybe I am just weak. And the ironic thing is I hate being such a weakling.

I should stop thinking nonsense and just focus on my academic pursuit.