For the last time (at least in my undergraduate life), I will be doing this. I think I am a really weird person. Sometimes the discouraging words people say get to me and deter me from what I thought of doing, whereas other times the discouraging words can seem like they fall on deaf ears as I will be stubborn and insist on doing. Who is to say that this is no more the time to do it? Who is to say that this is the wrong way to do it? Who is to say that you are not the right person to do it? The world we live in is not about black and white, instead it is about a lot of grey areas where there is no absolute scale about anything.

Do not ask me if it is worthwhile doing so. Do not ask me if this is what I want. Do not ask me if I know what I am doing exactly. I am afraid I may not have the energy and conviction that are as strong as last time, and questions will just make me doubtful. Please do not doubt me for I have set myself on this journey once more. Support me if you can, I will be eternally grateful. There is no more backing out from this, I will hang in there for as long as I need to be.

为什么我的心跳仍然会因你而加速？儿女私情，我要撇开你！全心全意奋斗到底。