This semester feels like forever, because it seems like so long ago when I was still in Beijing for my exchange, when indeed it has only been around 4 months. I guess it was the enormous amount of work rushed and completed during the semester, so much so everything seemed like a blur of madness. And sure I am glad it is finally over, because next semester shall be my last and I am going to make sure I do not waste it on things I should not be.

The last time to go for lectures and tutorials of modules which may not have anything to do with your career prospects but just being chosen for interest sake. The last time to do crazy things in school without being looked upon with much contempt. The last time to hang around in school and not do much other than chit chat and catch up over meals. The last time to seat around at your favourite schools and watch the whole world pass you by.

I am not saying that the above-mentioned cannot be done once you graduate and start working. But how much and how often can you get to do them when you start on your career, when you take up responsibilities in life, when you continue to move on to the next part of your life journey... You can only be young and carefree once. Even now I am starting to feel the pressure of spending money on self-enjoyment when I think about my parents slogging hard.

Life is never perfect, good things seldom last forever, you just cannot have everything you want in life, much less the way you hope for it to be. It is just the painful process of growing up, same as when you realised all the fairytale stories of happily-ever-after endings do not happen naturally or easily. I am a rather practical and paranoidal person, bread over love and worrying about the future etc. But at the same time, I never want to lose the person who is easily tickled by the simple little things in life. Money and meaning, both are strong motivations for myself, but I guess the former is starting to mean more as graduation days near and I start thinking about supporting my grandparents, parents and siblings. Oh well, LLST. (: