I know what I will be facing, I expect certain things to happen, I believe I will be able to brace through them unscathed having face them before. I thought I will be numbed to the negative effects they have on my psychic and emotions. Oh well, I guess once again I have just proven to myself I am a normal human. I can learn from past experiences but doesnt necessarily mean I have the power to stop history from repeating itself. I need my moral supports back close by my side...