Ponned my ever 1st major seminar class today, decided to just not go, partly also because of pretty bad cramps but nothing matters anymore.

No motivations at all to go for classes, to do readings, to read up for essays, to research for papers etc. Totally not in the mood for school. This has been going about for some time, on and off, sometimes good sometimes bad.

Priority in life has rather suddenly underwent a rather drastic transformation. I feel like being on a crossroad not knowing if I should stop or continue walking on, not sure if my direction or bearing is right or wrong, not understanding my own mentality, attitude and thoughts many a times also. Oh well. *shrugs*