I am not saying there are no such people existing near me, there are and I am super fortunate to have them stepping into my life and being there for me be it rain or shine. But I just wish I can have more help and support, which is quite hard to attain at this point of time. Such thoughts are very damaging to my mental state as they just depresses me to the maximum, and I will have to spend some time to mob about it and then get over it.

I do not know how to be carefree and not care about what other people say or feel besides your own. I cannot just leave things hanging when I know I can do something to make it better. I am not able to stop doing something just because I am tired and there is actually no need for me to really continue as people may not even notice. I just have not been able to learn such skills despite already graduated from university. I am aware such aspects in me will shagged me out physically and mentally no matter where I go in the future. Sometimes I wish I can be more cold-hearted. I will continue to learn to love myself more, but until then, please shower me with more love friends. :)

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